Should I or should I not?

What is stopping me? I have always been participating ever since primary school. Always been so active in school. And it was a dream of participating again this time round but what is stopping me? Because of kelly's absence?? Because of the distance of the training ground to my home? Because of the timing of the training and my next day lesson?

There are alot of reason that asked me not to join but again, if I am disciplined enough, determined enough, everything can be make possible, isnt it?

Just give it a try for this week and listen to what they have to say and I shall see how will things go on after that.

This might be the last time I am able to participate already, so just give it a try and see how things will go bahs.

Good luck yunru!

Labels: Confused, SIM

What else can I say? These days I wasnt feeling very good at all.

Flashbacks of everything! Good and bad memories of everything appeared in my mind for the past few days!

It was terrible! Real terrible! I couldnt control myself at all, and I couldnt really sleep because I will simply just wake up to see what time is it and I dont even know what woke me up. And when I was subconsiously awake, and physically tired, I will have all the bad memories coming to me!

I was really in depression!!! That time was A, and before I can cool myself down B appeared in my mind!

Happy memories isnt making me happy, because the relationship between you and me now. Thinking how wonderful those times were but never again and what is wrong. So, turn out, all the happy memories are just making me feeling worse.

I really wish to forget every single thing. Really! I want to leave everything behind here! Right here! Nothing follow me!

I guess the sentence, "The thing will forever come back to you till you learn" is really true! I guess I have really yet to learn any single s**t thing and therefore it is back and now to make things even worst, a double attack, or I should say triple attack! Haha!

Whatever! I just wish that now is October and so I can leave the country with Sesame to Redang! I really cant wait for Redang trip! Sesame please dont bully me or I will be really sad! =(( But still, I am looking forward for it where I will temporary leave everything here.

I guess I will off my phone during that time. Please be October soon!

Anyway, finally I forced myself to complete the stupid topic 2 of maths! A topic that I keep dragging and avoiding to do but finally I forces myself to do it. I guess is the same as what I am facing now, no matter what I do to avoid it or drag the problem, I still need to spend time to sit down and solve it. And dragging the problem doesnt help at all, because for a person who wants things to be order, will keep remembering that you still have a problem yet to solve.

I think it is really the same as life problem. You dont solve it now, years to come the problem still comes to you. Just like topic 2. You avoid it during Sec 3 amaths, and now 4years down the road, the same topic is back to you, and you have to solve it!

Solving it isnt it better? You clear that piece of s**t off your mind and burden? But, its not easy to face the problem and to sit down and solve especially when you know that the problem you tried to avoid years ago? Haha!

This is life...

Labels: Confused, school

Dont know what my mind is thinking now actually. Got confused again.

"If you cant bring him along, then let him go"

Easy to say, difficult to do.

Got really confused.

No mood to do anything. Spoils everything. Was supposed to be doing maths but no mood. Was supposed to be in quite high mood, but everything was spoilt.

Things after things. Problem after problem. Life is such full of these. It will never change. Forever it will be like this.

Cant sleep now. Boo

Labels: Confused

I guess not many people will see this.. so I shall have just blog this...

Who are my friends? Who are my true friends? Who? Who is willing to stand by me and willing to accompany me to do all these? Who is willing to be with me and suffer if time to come? WHO?

NONE? I dont know...

Actually I think in the past I know this very well, but I have never want to admit to it.. but I supposed its time to realise and face the music...

This is life, the people who you treat very well, and treat them as your good friends are never the ones that will stand by you, treat you well and willing to be with you against all odds. INSTEAD, the ones who you didnt really treat well, ignore are the ones who will stand by you...

Is this going to be the truth? I wonder.

I hope this isnt the case. I pray.

Labels: Confused

::18/08/87::
::Leo::
::YNPS, ESSS, RP, SIM-UOL::
::Outgoing, Friendly, Lame::
::Emotional, Sensitive, Short::

::PE Teacher::
::Netball Coach::
::Camp Instructor::

::Netball, Basketball, Running::
::Swimming, Badminton::
::Manchester United::
::Sleep & Slack::
::Green, Orange, Black::
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::Shifu(Mr Teo), Hubby::
::Sister & Family::
::Team RP::
::Sesame Gang::
::Piggies::
::MeiNu, Tings, Da Jie::

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=Not living in the past=
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=To be self-discipline=
=Not to repeat mistakes=
=To get gd grades in Uni=

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