I am angry!!!! Yes I am very anrgy!!!!! Angry and upset!!!! Oh pissed it! Fuk it! Damns!!!! Well.. read a mail... get angry when needed.. but get over it.... fine! I will get over it after this fuking blog... just pissed off... before I flare.... you SOB!!

End! Time to finish up my melbourne trip entry..

I realised we really take turns to go oversea... nana is away now... I'll be gone in 20hours more.... Thursday, nana will be back to Singapore... Friday, lydia is going to be gone... and... Sunday when I am back... Monday Hannah will be gone... then Lydia is back on the 31st... I will be gone on the 3rd.. then Hannah will be back on the 4th... then finally its me again on the 9th....

And so, when we are finally back... its 1 more week to school re-opens... both of you are going to be so busy with work... and I am going to chiong my PP so that I wont affect FYP... but I guess if there is the heart, we still can meet up for lunch right?

I dont know how long our friendship will last... when school re-open things will be different... hannah will be MC... then lydia facilitating dont know how many classes... nana having 4classes... and me too.. and I will be totally out of IT modules... will our friendship withstand all these?? I do not wish that we will be hi-bye kind of relationship... you guys are so deary to me... had all the funs together so much... and when nana and I are down.. you 2 are the ones that will listen to us... Hope to have lunch together 1 day.. so that when school reopens no matter how busy we are.. at least before school starts we had lunch together again... =))) I will be waiting..

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Hmm... buddies... oh well... its really pretty long that we went out... and once we went out.. the feeling was great... endless laughters.... endless talks.... endless suanning..... it is just sooo shiokkk... =)))) As we grow older, I guess everyone starts to cherish this more.... everyone making effort to meet up... and have all the funs.... its good... hopefully it will last too.... everything is so wonderful!!! =)))

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HAHAHA... dont know why la... I am like blogging so long.. maybe in another 7 days I wont.. therefore I am blogging now.... alright... I really cherish every friendship that I have... and I love them... especially to those who are close to my heart..... they are just pieces of flesh that make up my heart...... I love them... and I cherish all now.... hope everything changes..... and start anew..... because I fear..... but well.... let fate decides.....

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Dear ALL, please do not miss me so much because I dont want to sneeze so much... hahahah.. =p
Anyway, I am really looking forward for the trip.... now I can understand Ben's feeling now... I am really looking forward manssss... its going to be sooooo fun!!!

I just love my sister... haha... she changed the pouch for me... =X hee hee... =))

Alright, finally I have packed finshed my stuffs... oh well.. I am praying that I wont forget to bring anything and at the same time... well the quantity of clothes I heck lah.. cause think I will be washing some lorhs... especially when I had pathetic 4 sports bra only lahs.... oh mans....

Oh well, when I finished packing my lugg, then I realised I am damn excited for the trip!!!! I am looking forward for it mans!!!! =)))) Well, playing and training with the rugby people... oh mans... going over other country to play rugby.. how fun is that going to be??? Hahaha... =)))) Watching commonwealth games... thats the best part!!! And... hopefully get to go smith street where Addidas and nike warehouse!!! Then I can buy sports bag, watches, sports bra, t-shirt, shorts and many many things!!!! Oh mans.. I cant wait to go Mel now!!! Yipppeee yeah!!! =))))

The most exciting thing is that.. after mel, then will be going to msia for the danga international games on the 3rd april... just 1 week of rest and I will be gone again... hahaah... how great is that? how great can that be right? WONDERFUL!!! =))))

Sad thing is, I think I lost the passion for the game.. or rather everytime down for games... I dont have the mood to play anymore... keep telling people I dont wish to play... and start to feel abit restless... hmmm... hope when I go Danga wont be like this... I need to play for the team.. need the fighting spirit back... and to hold the 1st 7 position.. I need to fight...

Back to Mel... alright in another 21hours more... I will be on the plane on the way to Melbourne... and in another 7 hours.. I will be touching down Melbourne... breathing in melbourne air.... wah!!!! so shiok... so exciting!!!! yipppeeee yeahhhh!!! Though short... when supposingly I will be there for 10 days... but I think its still enjoyable!!! =)))) Must make my 500 dollars worthwhile!!!

Going to enjoy the trippp... yippeee... guys who are reading my blog.. please dont miss me too much.. I will be back on the 26th... and gone again on the 3rd... wahahhaha!!! Only have 1 week to book me though... hahaha...

Anyway.. I must say this... I LOVE MY PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miracle really happens alright!? Both of them sponsor me money!!!!! Actually the whole trip I have yet to fork out any amount!!!!! Oh well.... going used the money for both the Malaysia and Melbourne trip then.... heee... =))))

Sunday is coming soon... I will be gone for a week... but before that... I have yet to decide alot of things.. finally I decided the amount of money to be changed.. but the problem is I have yet to decide backpack or luggage... what to bring... I only know that for Danga I am sure to bring the backpack.. but for this I really dont know... =(((

I felt so lost mans.... the confirmed things to bring is the set of formal clothes but dont know which blouse yet... then my toiletries.. and 1 track shoe(dont know to bring my old one or the new one) then sandals... then my digicam... the clothes I really dont know how.. the schedule is so not confirmed.. really dont know how... =((( boo...

So boredd... and the worse is that my period is coming too.. so when will it be??? I am feeling so moodless now... damns.... haishhhh.. hope I can really pack finished by tomorrow.. then at least I can go and buy whatever things I dont have ... =((((

Why this title? Reason because... Melbourne trip... Well, I was very delighted for the fact that I am able to go melbourne.... but as the days go... I starting to feel abit of siansness... because details of it wasnt known... just know that we will be going Melbourne... attire and everything wasnt known.... what games are we watching we also dont know...

The most sadded this is... actually I am leaving today... but due to some dumb reason I thought leaving on the 18th... BUT! Now being told to be leaving on the 19th... sadded lah... shorter and shorter days lorhhhs... =((( SO sadded lah... 19th to 26th.. so few days... but suan le la... at least get to go bahs... =((((

I have yet to pack.. and I really dont know what to pack lorhs.. siansded!!!

Hope to be able to watch netball games...

Yippeee yeah yeah!!!! Miracle really happens to me... I am so happy...

When I wasnt selected for the commonwealth I was abit upset about it... though I accept the final decision... inside my heart it seems as though I am waiting for some miracle to happen... and... as I was waiting, waiting and waiting... Ben msn me...

"If to ask you pay 500bucks, to go Melbourne, will you go?" I was so happy!!! I was shocked... and next thing I know is, Kelly smsed me... and I knew she will be going too... and so I called her... but the funny thing is this... when I was about to accept it... I suddenly got a mixed feeling! I suddenly felt a sudden reluctancy of going... but well, eventually I accept it and... now I am feeling so delighted! =))) The happiness its undescrible! Can you imagine that supposingly on the 16th I will be going already... but well, due to some reason, Kelly and I will be leaving on the 18th... At least some time for me to pack and get things ready... and most importantly, able to ........... (panda will know)

Going melbourne = money gone lah... like I said, the amount of money I saved will be spent... and its really going to happen! And I am going to touch on my savings.... =(((( But my lovable mum is going to sponsor me 500 bucksss!!!! YIPPEEEE YEAH!!! heee heeee heeee love her.. muackssss =)))) WAh lau.. anyway just realised this is the 3rd trip with the school.... and ah... all own expenses... heng mummy is paying that 500bucks for me lorhs... and that time go msia.. daddy got give me alittle lah... but thailand was really fully on myself... =((( I WANT SPONSORSHIP!!!! HAHAHA!!!! =XXXXX Any kind soul??? =X

Now I dont know if I should use backpack or luggage lorhs.. cause its like I feel like using backpack lahs.... dont really feel like using luggage lers.... luggage is good lah.. but then erhs... dont know le.. hahahah =x wait for all the bags to come then I shall decide again bahs....

Anyway, yesterday was a wonderful day for me... really had lots of laughter lorhsss.... they just rocks!!! Laughter and laughter and more laughter... wahahaha =p and then movie was great too... wah.. its been quite some time since like this... hee hee.. =))) hope to have more of these.. panda.. next time please get 3As ah! then will be your turn.. whaahhaa =p

Its time to decide what are the items to bring sias... if not.. die... hahaha =p

I love my SISTA! She rocks... she sacrifices her show because I need to go to IT Fair to get the external HDD... actually we didnt go already because I went to sleep.. in the end I was rather tired so we didnt... BUT when I woke up as I was using my laptop, suddenly it restarted and when into the consitency check... I was furious.. and well.. my beloved sista accompany me to buy it! =) muacks.. hee hee =X She treated me KFC too... heeeshhhh... =)))))))

Anyway, just read that dumbo irritating panda's blog... oh bloody shit... she is starting to call me LULU already! Oh mans... thanks to the SHIT!!! She call me that I am fine lors... she go and tell panda... oh damn it... thats it! My name will be LULU from now on since that stupid dumbo is calling me that... grrrr...

Well, tomorrow going out again!!! YIPPEEE YEAH!!!! Reason for so happy because well I am bored, Cindy's treating, and most importantly is going out with those irritating freakos! =X ooooppppsss. Nvm guess they will only read it after we went out... hee hee hee =X Its going to be so nice!!! SUBWAY!!!! SWENSEN!!!! MOVIESS!!!! Yoo hooo.... !!! =)))

WAH! Just realised I had alot of things to buy... after buying the external HDD, I need to buy sports bra, sports short, sports bag, backpack, shampoo, watch, bermudas.... Most of it actually is a NEED and not a WANT... so irritating right!? Damn it! Want to save money during my holiday, yet think the money I saved is going to be spent away... =(((

OKies.. feeling much better today.. guess yesterday was really moody only... so guess I am udnergoing some PMS only.. hee hee =X Anyway... they didnt reply me today lahs... wah piangs erhs.... boooo =(((

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Haish... I am hoping that this isnt a fake one... I really cherish those time and moments... I know it was -----------... but I am enjoying it now.... please... let it be real... no more barrier... no more... no more.... let it be gone..... i am really enjoying now...

Sighs....

Have I turn into self-denial mood? Have I turn into somebody who choose the easy way out?

Forcing yourself to accept whatever truth... is it self-denial? Dont wish to question anything, and just accept whatever it is.. is it choosing easy way out? Now I realised I always tell myself to accept it... but inside my heart I keep hoping for some miracle to happen.. am I actually bluffing myself? Is this self-denial? But is this the better way? Is this the better way then anything else?But anyway accepting the truth.. its hard... real hard.... its so mentally torture! Just so tortureee....

And... forcing yourself to accept, and waiting for miracle to happen.. does it help? Or it create more sadness? I really dont know... is this the root of my sadness???

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I dont know why, I can smile and laugh all I can when I am outside, but the moment I'm at home, I am stuck into sadness... maybe these days too much sad things had actually happened to me... but thinking about it, I dont know why it is still sticking to me... I feel really disgusted by the feeling... I dont wish to fall into sadness at all.. and the worst is that I dont know why I am feeling sad...

Reading Panda's blog... I could smile... really smile out and really enjoy the moment we spent together just now... it was wonderful.... despite whatever sadness that I may feel... but the smile on my face now is less than even 10secs?

What had got into me? Why am I feeling so heavy inside now? Feeling like crying but its so hard to cry out? Have I got into depression mode again? Or maybe is my period is coming, moodswing is hitting me now? I dont know... I hope is the latter...

Out of a sudden... I am feeling so lost... I feel that I had actually lack of something in life... what am I lacking? What am I lacking in life?

This holiday is going to be so pretty long..... its just the 1st week of my holiday... and I have 6 weeks of holidays... how am I going to spend it? I cant do PP or FYP now.... there is nothing I can do at all... I am so lost... so damn lost... how can I spend it? Only can spend it with JJ... but what that can benefit me? I dont know... looking for job... but dont know can work what also...

Haish.. what is wrong wth me??? These days when I am alone.. I am really feeling sooo lonely... so sad... why why why? Melbourne? Danga? L? THAT or whatever? Defiantely not L... Danga? Maybe... Melbourne? Maybe... THAT? Maybe.. high possibilty... but I cant do anything... I JUST CANT DO ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!!

EVERYTHING I HAD NO CONTROL AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DONT HAVE THE LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I definately dont wish to blame it on luck... but why? why? why? I really dont understand... dont know... trying so hard for everything... but everything just become the way I hated it... !!!!

Anyway... I dont feel it anymore... there is a barrier... definately... the feeling is so fake... its not real at all... its all fake... damn fake! But... how to make it real? I am trying hard again.. BUT!!! Just too bad then....

Everything just isnt the right way man... Oh mans... I should really spend some quality time with myself? or maybe sleep my time... and eat my time... and thats all.. so I cant think of anything...

So painful... mentally... and physically.. espeically when I fell on my butt and the lower back hurts... and when my upper back muscle just dont want to make it fine... and when I brushed my teeth.. the toothbrush dont know why just hit my lower gum.. and now there is 2 holes at my gum.. and its so painful.... and with the hurt/sadness I am feeling inside... oh what the hell...

IT MUST BE MY PERIOD!!!!!!!

Alright... today have lots of feeling... sadness, happiness, angriness, etc....

Sadness... ok result finally known to all... I AM OFFICIALLY OUT! Alright... Isnt selected... hmm... little bit of jealousy? Maybe... but just be it... and I think there were more people who were also jealous of me, because at least I got the chance to go for the interview.. =) At least I am once selected... means something... =)))))) I am really feeling ok about this whole thing already... =) At least still got Danga Bay International Game... so at least still got 1 week of outside Singapore... =) Not going Mel maybe is better because I can train more...

Happiness... oh... only Panda knows... and I shant elaborate on that too.. and wishing all the best to her also.. and also... hope tomorrow is a even better day for me... and well.. I really hope that we will stay it this way... I dont wish to lose youL...... Panda... sorry ah... I learn from you with the capital.. =x Not special feelings.. just feel the warmth I get and the understanding....

Angriness... oh well.. because of the Mel thing also... but now since result is officially out.. then just be it then...

ETC feeling... is a feeling that I dont know how to describe lah... but anyway I really hope that whatever I thought of is not the truth... because its going to be damn hurting if that is the case... I am truly serious about it! When I think about it, its like quite sad lorhs... but its still not the truth yet la.. because is just an ASSUMPTION!.. Therefore I shant bother about it.. and let me wait and see the result then.....

Ok... anyway its time to really get my external HDD... and since IT fair is coming.. think its time to make my way down to check it out... and since Panda said that ah hai they all also going... so yea lors... just wait and see how =)

Match against RP.... hmm.... no comments for now lah.. quite not in the mood to talk about it actually also...

Haish... no more mood to continue to blog lers... maybe when I in a better mood when you are around... =p

Ok.. I am not selected.. thats all that I want to blog.. but anyway Thanks to U to chat with me all the way.. panda will know what I meant... hor? hee =X

Tssssskkkkkkk!!!!! I just finish some sit ups & the hang-in there... and now I feel like running!!! Oo goddddd.d... I am madded... hahaha =x !!!! =p

I just cant sleep... dont know why lers... today like dont feel like sleeping sia... maybe I shalll try not to sleep.. then tomorrow night sleep early then thursday wake up early get ready for cheering them... =)

I am madded... really madded... lolx... Anyway wah lau.. Friday training was like crazeee lah... I vomitted lors... I think first time I vomitted for training sia... bloody hell... when running.. was pretty slow at the start... then really very far behind all of them lorsh... then I feel very tired.. but I told myself.. I cant be the last.. and so I chiong infront... and after chioning then I realised eh.. nto tired... so just continue... but at the last stretch.. was pretty tired liao la... so kinda slow lah... then when walk one round to cool down abit... I vomitted la.. bth liao...

Feeling super nausea after that also la... then having very bad headahce also lors... after that.. did one conditioning on reaction.. haish.. fish mans.... my stopping was really bad... I cannot stop and change my direction fast lorhs... (that is why I am doing sit up & hang-in there)... well sians la... keep kena suicide cause of that lors... haish... my speed already not fast then like that.. damn it.. fuking shit lors.. haish... really must train liao la.. stamina and speed mans...

Then after that did long passing... fuking passing just fuking sucks also lors... just cannot pass long passes.. either too down or too far out la.. or when I catch.. i will step lah... sian la... how to compete la? kns me... booo.. then after that half court.. then kena said that I gave too much space to opponent liao.. so have to keep it near lorhs.. then also must remember in livewire i cannot let the opponent off lah.. as in dont kpo other ppl opponent... must really adapt to different training mans... if not really can die sia... different coaching different style of playing...

speed ah.. stamina ah.. change of direction ah.. passing ah... contro ah... adaptation ah.. aiyo... so much so much.. !!!! DETERMINED TO TRAIN UP MANS!!!!

Alright... the nick had changed to: "janelle says i dont know the results yet maybe 3 will be selected" ... just when I had decided to ask her... she changed her nick to that... oh welll... I give up... I dont want to fall into disappointment... I give up.. I give up.. I give up...

I am not selected... and I dont think danga bay is on too... kelly knows nothing about it.. forget it... damn.... thought able to go oversea.. and bloody hell both is unable... this is so sad.... really sad!!!! oh mans.... haish... why why why... suan le.. at least i know I get the chance to go for the interview.... =x

Oh mans.. in another 8 more days commonwealth games will be started... and so.. when will we know the result? Most of us now are really waiting for the results... 5 will be selected.. since Friday evening... and now its already Tuesday night.. and was said that Tuesday mist likely we will know... but now now now... haish.... =( its night already... we have yet to know the result.. =(

Thinking its going to be ok not to be selected.. but I am still sooo anxious for the result! Early morning checking my sms.. and waking up checking my mail.. and checking janelle's nickname... haish.. everything has no result... =( Oh manss... I am really anxious about it... so how is it going to be like? I wonder....

I hope i am selected together with other 4 who I know.. oh please.... praying hard.... leaving like less than a week... how to pack the stuffs if you are selected.. oh mans...

Anyway.. its the 2nd day of holiday.. and finally I collected my cert... and well... its really boring lors... I really hope that this holidays I have a good holidays sia....

Result.. please be out sooonnnn...

Hmmm... only 5 will be selected.. and so... will I be the one? Every single one of them have their own talents, own achievements and so on... and so.... the competition is strong... Anyway, actually till this point of time, I suddenly have mixed feelings... I dont know like feeling want to go or not... but well.. maybe feeling this way is good so that when I am not selected I wont be so upset about it? Also, its like since its the result is dragged until so long... I guess the urge is not really there.. maybe not as strong as others... but I guess this is better.. so I wont be feeling so disappointed if I am not selected... oh well.. shall just wait for Janelle for the result then...

Alright, anyway friday was the last day of school and its really the last day at Tanglin too... no more easy easy meet people lerhs... no more just call and come down meet liao... dont think at Woodlands will be that easy man!

Next year (year 3) is a total of business course... I really wonder who will be my classmates, and I wonder if I can adapt.. and hows my grade... well.. now shall just enjoy my holiday and ignore everything..

Anyway, yesterday(sat) might be the first and only time that going to have so much fun with dajie.. met her and kelly for breakfast and kel actually cannot tahan the both of us.. because both of us will just bicker so much.. then during the operation fun I did something dumb! What actually happened was that I went to take water gun.. and then I shot at dajie.. and I went to make hannah... and! Eugene wanted to wash his hands, therefore I shot at his hand, but lydia and hannah actually revenged by snatching both my guns! Oh gosh! And the next moment I found out is that I am lying on the floor... being shot by the both of them! And pleading for forgiveness~ oh mans.. infront of the SIT staffs lah.. Tee lip, eugene, martin all laughed at me lorhs... wah kaos.. and other SIT staffs... so paiseh.. tupid hannah!

And what happened next is... I kena sarbotaged by my SC members... everyone of them.. bluffed me that Ben wanted to look for me.. then later the next moment I realised I am going to dunk! Oh damn shit! Sooooo sadded mans! I am drenched lah!

After being drenched.. I saw Linda, hannah and Lydia... Dumbos hannah and lydia actually hide behind linda... its like I dont know linda lah.. then they smart lorsh.. go and hide.. then I cannot sarbo them... booo!!! then stupid dumb hannah keep trying to hide behind linda... then linda keep saying naughty gal!! Oh manss... I am a naughty gal? Thought I am always very good? wahahha... =x Oh yah.. hannah.. is such a good friend!!! She actually leave lydia in the lurch.. when I was huggin lydia.. with all my sweats... she ran away! She didnt save her... she just ran away stick with the SIT staffs... and therefore I sure wont go find her la... hmpfff!!! I will find one day and disturb hannah!!!

OK lah.. I must say I really had fun with them... they are really fun to play with.. oh well.. oh well.. I hope that this friendship wont end.. anyway I had already treat them as friends.. and even if they still treat me as student its ok.. but seriously I just do not wish to lose them as friends.. they are just so fun.. hahahha =p hope move to woodlands liao.. wont be that bad... =) Enjoy myself...

Tomorrow is Monday... a working day... and so... will I know the result? 5 people!!! out of 9!!! and soo... who are the 9? There is 4 girls.. definately they wont take all 4 girls and 1 boy... and so... haish.. just prepared for the worst then... sadded...

I am so bored... really bored... nothing to do... planned to go swimming... running and have all exercise during this holidays... if not think I am going to be soooo bored!!!! DARNS!!! AHHH!!! work work work... anybody want to hire me??? =X

Hmm.. its time to blog now...

Tomorrow, its going to be the end of my 2nd year in RP... so what have I done for one year? Well, my attitude and discipline for studies in this year I doubt it was good... wanted my GPA to remain as 3.0 my 2nd year, 2nd semester seems to make it worse... hoping to either maintain it or making my GPA even better... but it looks like my GPA is going to drop below 3.0... so will I ever learn my lesson? Didnt you remember how hard you have to take it when you received your O level result? Having GPA 3.0 its only slightly above average... having 3.5 just helped you scape through.. getting 3.8 just gives you the chance to go local Uni... so... what am I? haish... Will I wake up in year 3? I dont know... Now CE point is no longer my fear... I am just left with PP and FYP.. so well.. shall just try my very best then... CCA wise.. I think I know the answer.. staying in SC and Netball then... but definately not holding P for SC... because its quite a huge commitments post where I cant contribute so much as I have netball in RP and Livewire and not forgetting my PP & FYP...

Yesterday noon, I went for the interview for the Commonwealth Games. Oh well, was really very nervous for it... preparing myself with all the questions about Commonwealth Games.. but forgot that should actually focus on Team Singapore. But well.. anyway prepared alot of things, but didnt really said much.. And this is how the interview went...

Sebast reached there first I think... Janelle was telling him what is it most likely going to be like... Aaron came before 4pm and had his interview first.. therefore Janelle roughly knows... She was explaining to us that say all out the achievements you have... all the event you organised, planned and supported.. One full list of events came into my mind... "Inter class games, inter house, night cycling, president visit, open house, 52 hour marathon, .... ... " so on and so on... then Janelle said, you have lots of events, so make sure I mentioned it... and mentioned that I am the P of SC.... oh well.. most of these was "practised" before I go... but while waiting... some of the events just went off... finally its time for the inteview... and...

Sebast, Nana and Kelly went in first... Kelly came out and explained what is Team Singapore to all of us.. and after nana was my turn... the very 1st question was what you think is Team Singapore... I was nervous... holding both hands together and said, well I think it is the atheletes, and the family of the atheletes, the supporters and volunteers... then they struck this question to me, "I am surprised you mentioned about volunteers, so what do you think the volunteers do?" Oh.. this question really stung me for a moment... I was like.. oh shit.. then I just said, there are lots of supporters from Singapore and therefore the volunteers duty is to organise the volunteers over there and then trying to lead them into a cheer and so on.... then they asked question out of Team Singapore... asking about Business Computing & IT... asking the differences... and well just explained the differences.. at this moment then I relaxed more... then they saw that I am from Netball, and started asking me so you know Kelly? And said that she is the captain so what post am I holding.. then I said I am the competition manger BUT I am the President of Sports Club... I think mentioning that I am the P of SC is the best thing that I had mentioned.. because I think if I didnt mentioned that I think I have nothing much to mention and also my post as CM isnt that great too.. After mentioning about SC, they asked so what is SC about.. and so start mentioning to them SC is the head of all IGs, and IGs seeking to us and need funding they will approach us... then after that they started asking the questions that I had prepared for long... which is "SC organised alot of events right? So what events do you all organised?" And started talking about having interclass games, joining the staff to organise inter staff games.. and then night cycling.. and so on... So after that I think they said ok and go back to the game.. and said, as you know, the game is going to be held on the 15th to the 27th.. and how will your parents think about that? Then I just mentioned about they know about the interview today and they were very supportive about it... and so after that they said.. you should know by now that you wont be going with the atheletes, and you will be going by us and that you be our like doing the logistic stuffs... and cause there are alot of supporters, and there are Singapore students studying at melbourne so you have to organised and gather them and so on.. and what I said is just I udnerstand.. and nodding my head... guess this is the mistake I have done.. and after that she said, any questions then I just said basically know as you had already mention about the role... and pooof... I am out.. and this is the end of the interview.. and well.. heard from Yen Kai, tuesday the result will then be out.. oh well.. just wait patiently then....

After that.. was game with IJC... actually didnt really feel like playing at all.. I really got no reason why I doesnt have the feeling of playing.. but well... I think if I want to be better player.. then I have to play then... during warm up was relaly shittty.. and my first quarter was very shitty also.. keep dropping ball.. no interception and stuffs... it was really bad...then later when syahidah was playing WA.. then he told me my mistake.. about chasing after others when its going to be no help la.. then.. finally I gather my courage and asked him that question.. and well.. I understand.. but after that during the last quart.. I got the chance.. but I didnt use it.. then thinking dont know is it the right choice or not.. because its like its for my own good? -shrugs- dont wish to talk about it already.. just listen to him.... improving now.. so focus on it.. one thing at a time..

Hmmm... I am rather tired... guess I better go sleep.. told my dajie I am going to school.. so I guess I have to.. anyway its the last day at tanglin.. so I guess just enjoy myself in school for the last time... nights all...

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