Oh damn it.. I thought I am feeling relieved after the submission.. but after seeing the email from Gary that on this coming Wednesday that the result of our presentation will be out.. and then seeing the email that.. the result of our FYP will be out together with others module.. and so many many many criteria for presentation.. I am scared... so scared that my tears like going to roll down.. shucks... I really hate presentation... and presentation is like 20%... and its like because at coding wise.. most of it is like nana done it.. so somehow I will be like quite bad... and blah blah.. shit.. I am like feeling very very nervous now... and looks like I am not able to calm down.. grrr!!! Save me... !!! I just doesnt seems to be able to calm down!!!

I really need to know the stuffs well.. then presentation I think for 10% I can calm down... I need to prepare the presentation well enoougghhh!!!

Hey dar.. I guess I cant meet you this wednesday.. because I think I want to go back school to prepare my presentation slides.. and maybe to make sure I know the criteria well and prepare it... I guess I only can go back after my presentation!! Sorry! =( Maybe wednesday night.. then meet you for dinner.. or something.. sighs! =(

I want to get out of here sooon!!! This is so sickening!!! DAMN IT!

I better start blogging before I get tired again... Just now at around 9pm.. I was blogging a little.. but it gets a bit sians.. and then so I just click the [x] at my top right hand corner.. now as my hair is still pretty wet, I shall do some.. because I rreally feel like blogging so muchhhh!!!

First of all, now I declare 1st FYP over... well though not really over yet.. but the major work is already done... now leaving with our presentation slides & our presentation and afterwhich.. waiting for the grade... but I do not wish to see so far... just let nature takes it course for now...

Just now as I was going to nana's house or even before that, I was actually thinking.. since now I am still having the momentum... I better dont stop... I better complete the FYP presentation slides early.. and also complete my PP & CE points asap.. I dont think I want to delay both of them till September holiday.... From now till my holidays I still got about 3 more weeks, therefore within this 3 weeks I want to complete my CE & PP!!!

I want to really enjy my september holiday!! Pleasee.. yunru.. please... be more discipline now... you have chiong yourself for the past 3 weeks I guess for your FYP.. now is to stay at this pace, this attitude.. to complete the CE points & your PP.. I really want to enjoy myself during Sept hols.. with totally no worries at all!!! So suffer now.. and you can enjoy later!!!

By attending any talk, or whatever get your 1 CE point... and finish off your PP and submit by school close... at least during holiday or when school reopen.. you will finish 2 modules by then.. isnt it good!?! Please, please, please!!! DO IT!.. But really damn it.. actually my CE points, long long finish liao.. but those irritating ass dont want to give me the pints.. its like about 6 points lorsh!!! =(((

Alright.. for the time being.. I am more relaxed... and finally I can train again... I can runn!!! yipppeee.. so happy that I can runnn!!! so happy mans... I cant wait to run on Tuesday.. ehehee.. but I am not waitin for the jumps on friday!!! =x Only waiting for runs.. but not jumpsssss... I am gonna enjoy myself on Tuesday!!!! Please no rain!! I want to enjoy soooo much..!!! =)))

Finally can get to sleep early too.. but for today.. I guess not.. wahaha.. because think... my hair is still wet.. and i am still here.. wakaka... hmm.. but somehow.. I am kinda sleepyy... I guess because today I only have 6 hours of sleep! =(

Anyway... yesterday went for NDP Preview.. been rather long... since I went for NDP.. and this is my 2nd time... and it will be the last time at KAllang.. hahaa.... oh well.. went with my pathetic sister.. haha... who have her teeth operate out.. so she cant get to eat.. and seeing people getting whipped photo... she was like.. grrr.. no dinner.. but somehow.. we saw the army guys.. giving out breads... and... so heng enough.. when it was our turn... we were asked to go the other side.. and so we didnt get our bread... but we saw people selling food.. and so.. she bought nasi lemak for me.. heehe.. and it cost her 3 bucks.. on mans... haha.. but... well.. we went past the bread side.. and haa.. she asked from the army guy for 2 bread.. and.. she was sooo happy.. wahahaha... and so.. finally we get to go into the stadium.. after sooo many obstacles!!! from the station to the stadium.. grrr.. ok.. its a pretty ok one.. kinda difficult how i felt.. but somehow.. i was observing around.. and hmm.. lots of thoughts... but dont know how to pen it down.. hmm.. after the parade.. haha.. we took hours to go home.. because at 1st was waiting for jie's fren.. then we walked to bus 12.. then the stupid bus not there for dont 45mins? then plus the 45mins ride.. so its pretty long time to reach home.. ahaha..

Ok, so to conclude everything... I have finsh my FYP.. leaving with the FYP presenation slides... and my goal for this month is to complete my PP project and submit it before school ends.. and also attend a dumb course or whatever to get that 1 CE point... and then.. I can happily enjoy my short 4 weeks holidays during Sept.. and maybe... able to help my ah tong for her preparation of her N level ! =)))

And now I can happily go for training without worries.. and I wont be late to miss any part of it... and happily enjoy!!! heehee....

ALight.. time to pack and sleep...

The feeling is not good. Maybe this is a lesson to be learnt. Dont spend too much time, dont have so many good times together until you are sure that both of you are really close friends ... because at a certain point of time, when they/she/he is/are gone.. thats it for you!

Without a word, and you are gone.. not even a goodbye..

Now walking around the places that we used to go, at times it really does trigger some memory... and it will dampen my mood for a moment.. or maybe the rest of the day! Sighs!

What happened? Why such things will happen?

And I am not willing to let it go, neither do I want to, or I dont even wish to... and I cant bear to..

GRRRR!!! STuck in designing!!! GRRRRR!!! Damn itttt!!!

While waiting for my hair to dry, I shall update abit because I do not wish to touch on my FYP at all..

Anyway, I really need a break.. just a short break maybe is good enough? But dont think I can ask for a break now because at this moment is the time when you should give everything.. the submission is just 1 week to go.. please tahan for abit more..

But anyway, I always thought training or games could really give me a break and make me cheer up a little.. but even before going the journey just make me so tired that even before I could go for it and enjoy, my mood is already affected.. this is just something that is so sucky... and what is worse is when.. during the game or training.. just a little mistake of your own and when you felt so lost that you dont even know what are you doing.. or even when just a little louder voice from him... can just make you cry inside.. can just make you feel you are so sucky.. this kind of things really sucks... I dont want it..

Anyway, I want to apologise to everyone, especially the livewirers.. i am really tired this week... especially when I dont wish to sacrifice game, training or anything.. so i only have to sacrifice my sleep for it.. and so.. when I go for training or game.. I seem pretty down on.. and maybe some way or rather.. maybe have affected you guys.. just sorry.. i am really tired... and also thanks for all your concern and encouragement.... sai, i love you too. chan, i love you too. I didnt reply just now, so i tell you now... ill be the normal yunru next week! Thanks all !

Yesterday.. didnt really play also.. so return home and have late dinner and started doing work till like 4am? Initially wanted to stay up all the way then go school.. but didnt, not because I am tired.. but just the mood of doing at 4am is gone already.. so just dont want to waste time and so went to sleep.. woke up with slightly puffy eyes again.. and late.. and again.. spent my saving on cab again.. sighs..

Its been a long time since I experienced so bad headache.. the whole damn day I was having headache.. and it just dont go away.. and sometimes is really just so bad that I bang my head against the wall.. jus to get rid of the damn pain... and what is worse is that i have a toothache.. think my tooth had a decay.. and so its so painful.. and thats on my left.. and on my right i had a ulcer and seems like one of the tooth also going to decay.. so basically i have pain on both side.. so when I eat.. its damn painful.. and irritating... having pain in my head and my teeth is not enough.. the god just want to be funny.. by causing pain in my hamstring. when I felt so sore since tuesday fitness training.. soooo damn it...

Seeign SW so happy about her submission of her project this afternoon at 5pm.. I just hope it will be my turn.. and well.. its just another 1 week to go... I need to be damn focus and make sure I complete the design and linking and testing by Sunday.. and so Monday we could do documentation and test plan and blah blah blah... and then Friday is my freedoooommmm!!!

Just read dar's blog.. and read this :
"At one point in time this particular person might be the most important in your life and you are willing to give up anything just to be with that one. But the very next that someone just creeps out of your life and almost becoming a stranger to you. Then you start to wonder what happened that triggered all these changes"

And well.. it just trigger my mind.. because it is so damn true that I met that 'stranger' and treating me like 'stranger'.... when USED TO be somebody who I am willing sacrifice anything...

Labels: Netball, RP

I think about it.

I clenched my fist.

I feel so uneasy.

I feel aching all over.

I feel the pain in my heart.

And, I cried to sleep!

I shall just blog a little before I go sleep.

Just done the FYP. Hmm think is not very well done, but I cant make decision, therefore I cant do much, hope nana can understand.

Hmm.. after that day telling her how I felt, things was much better, as in she understand and she let me off for trainings. Well, thanks for that, and I am pretty appreciate that.. though there were times that I felt guilty, but sometimes really when together, there wasnt much discussion going on, therefore yeah... Oh well, anyway now FYP we are left with 9 more days to submission, hmm... looks pretty scary ah!? Hahaha =X Well, I really hope that its a pass. I mean I dont really mind if I really cannot make it (touchwood) but if thats the case I cant complain, becasue I didnt do much, but as for her, she cannot.. she did alot! SO please pray for her.

Alright, went training today.. so happy about it.. hehehe.. it really cheer me up so much! And when running the feeling was so shiok.. its the best man! Running to stadium was like so nice... =)))) OH well, anyway after that doing some jumping jacks, and some funny funny stuffs... and some team thingy... we ran 300m and then did some sprints...

Boohoo.. was pretty sad up till now.. because is like... I did 4 sprints.. and the timing was like about the same... and then the 5th sprint.. I wasnt allowed to do it.. because after the 4th one.. was feeling like kind of cramp is coming up or soemthing.. so did some stretching.. and casue everyone was asking if I am ok.. so was like.. she dont allow me to run. =( But well.. anyway after that we ran to 349.. then after that had some sprints again.. then play ball game.. but I wasnt in the mood.. and after that run back to school... and had a final sprint.. and that sprint is shhhiiiioooook! =)

Soooo shioookkkkk!!!! =))) =XXXXX

But now. my muscle.. seems abit weird now... hmm.. hopefully is nothing.. hopefully is because I didnt train much.. thats why!

Ok.. its time to sleep.. because tomorrow there is a game.. so I have to sacrifice my sleep time for FYP to cover up the time for my game... nights all! =)

At this moment, I am not pretty sure what am I doing... and somehow I really tired about it... and the thought of this week.. is not very nice...

Monday and Wednesday I am going to have games... and Tuesday & Thursday I am going to have RP trainings... and Friday.. Livewire training... and not forgetting that I have only 12 more days to go for my submission of FYP... At this moment my games & my FYP is the most urgent & important issue now.. and so it means that I have to miss my trainings because I need to go for my games... hmm... sighs.. I dont wish to do that.. and so I am pretty hardworking this weekend..

Saturday waking up and finishing the codes for credit card.. and after that till now have been trying to design the layout.. and I must say that.. it is not easy.. I have screwed up like dont know how many times... well the good thing is I back up my page.. so even though I screwed those pages.. but still survived.. but somehow.. I really hate it is that it still cannot work.. and I really dont know what the damn problem is.. and because it cant work.. means during the weekdays I need to spend more time in school to do it.. and it means that I cant go training.. how wonderful is that right? Damn it!

Trainings and games for the whole week is the best and that is what I always wanted.. but somehow.. becasue of FYP.. many things I have to sacrifice.. and somehow.. it also looks like my fitness is going down a little.. due to lack of physical training for this week... =(

Quickly finish off this damn thing... !!! FInishing this by 28th.. doesnt mean my total freedom.. because I have presentation to do.. and so lots of preparation needs to be done.. not only that.. I have my PP to complete before my 2nd FYP... but finishing this on the 28th.. does at least make me relax for a moment and enjoy training.. and being prepared for the beep test coming on.. I dont wana flunk it again! Really.. that time was a bad time.. and it really makes me so down for a long time!!!

12 more days to go.. way to go.. yunru.. please be more hardworking.. and do your best..

Its time to sleep.. or rather try to sleep.. because.. I have no more leave.. neither do I have money to take cab... so the only way out is to sleep early.. wake up early.. and take a bus... and reach school on time...

Anyway... yesterday after saying I might not grad to mr leong & mr teo.. suddenly when I was walking home.. I was wondering.. do I really havce to stay for 1 more sem? Well.. it is not a definite thing yet.. and somehow... if I were to work hard.. and be more confident and more discipline... I need not stay.. and why am i so pessimistic about it? Hmm...

REMEMBER YOUR GOALS, MY DEAR MYSELF!

Thanks dar for your understanding... well... yesterday wanted to talk to you but there wasnt any chance at all..

The feeling of going out with the close ones are really good.. or just even being able to be with them... after the damn irritating day with the damn f person... and having to sit down for 30mins to do a test that i am not confident at all.. and doing the tiring fyp.. and having to think about ~... it sucks.... and when on cab... really fall asleep sooo deep.. but in awhile i was sent to ES.. and finally I trained with them.. and having to listen to all the crap from all of them was great.. just make me laugh after a long shit day.. and its nice... and the dinner was great.. but I guess I wasnt really normal... and they sensed it... i was crazee.. talking all kinds of rubbish... and being like a crazy woman.. but those were the times that i can really smile and laugh out loud with people who i am close...

Yest.. was really tired... even dont feel like bathing... but still I bathe.. and just a few minutes after that.. I went to sleep ignoring the fact that my hair is wet.. because i just got tooooooo tired...

Oh well... today woke up and finally i finish the encrption and decrption of credit card and the codes for confirmation.. so glad... and just so nice mr leong sms ask if want to go for dinner.. so i think its a good time to relax myself.. so i agreed... but after doing finish.. i really felt damn tired.. even when i bathe.. i felt really sleepy.. and when i was 4hours awake... guess when you are working.. things are different.. haha

Anyway... well.. though it was lots of suan-ing.. but at least its relaxing.. and not stressing or tiring... and went back home... reward myself with a cup of icecream.. and dad boght durians.. so ate it.. then after that.. trying to do my interface.. but couldnt find it or what.. i guess i might just leave it..

At the later of the night.. was chatting with idiot.. and she was depressed.. and so chatted abit.. and after that I was playing a game.. and well.. the song that i heard.. makes me think of everything again.. and somehow... i told idiot about it.. and.. yes... i cried when i said.. and well she is the first one that can make me talk about tt friend of mine and cry at the same time.. and somehow.. the feeling got worse when she send me a song... i really cry and cry.. and keep thinking about it... at first i really feel like closing it this situation to just myself and panda and parttime... but seems like im opening up to idiot.. because i think she will understand... because she is undergoing it... butbutbut.. haish.. my mood and everything really affected by the whole damn thing.. i though i could be happy becasue i done my work.. but turn out.. everything was affected.. and also is like at first i was sleepy.. but now i couldnt sleep... thinking through the times that we are together.. and the times when we laugh.. and reading through the logs... it really hurts deeply...

I really feel like telling HIM about it.. but i really dont know how to bring it up to HIM... the day when HE ask me I wish I can say it to him.... but I really dont know how to say it.... i only could say the stress thing that is in me.. but i couldnt say the thing that is in my heart... i really dont know how!!! i really dont know... but i know i want to....

Because Of You

by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

you fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing!

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life

because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you

Because of you

Alright, since I am early for school, I shall blog about something... Anyway, I am early because I took a cab... I am too tired to take a bus.. and actually I woke up damn early today... I woke up at 650am... but in the end I took a cab.. haha =x

Yesterday night I finally cried out after the many times when I feel like crying yet I couldnt cry out.. I dont know why but just feeling really like crying but no tears wants to come out.. doing fyp also felt this way.. when that incident also felt this way... but well yesterday.. I think I was really physically tired and mentally dead and so when mr teo talked to me.. i could taste the saltiness of my tears... feeling touched or i am so tired that when he asked i just cried it out... but i just know that at a point of time, when I am saying about something, I really kept crying that i couldnt stop...

Oh well... many things had been happening... and just at this moment I have alot of things to do and I could sense my level of stress is high and my level of tolerance for people is low... and so when you want to control and not to show it out.. its damn sick! And its really low... I get freaking pissed sooo damn easily... damn it...

"Just know how to ask for help"... I thought I had always been asking for help? But to sit down and think.. I guess i that was in thge past.. and now... i just dont know how to or who to look for? There was once when M.T was online that I feel like talking to him.. but I dont know how.. and I just kept quiet and handle it myself? Or maybe... I just chose the easy way out.. escape from problem? I dont know...

Anyway... thanks dar & m.t.. thanks for showing concern... dar im sorry.. but at this moment I really cannot help anybody or lend you a listening ear.. because I dont think i am able to...

I really feel like going to the beach to shout it out... ahhhh.. been wanting to shout for soooo many times... and i think my ears going to go deaf soon... casue of the many times of hearing loud music..

FYP... please quickly get over... I really need a break from it!!!

Part-timer and Panda will understand.

Oh well, talk to them about the same thing... and somehow when I am left alone, I think about it... it hurts... it hurts damn much... but well the funny thing is that it did not make me cry even it is hurting... I guess maybe it is not strong enough to make me cry? But it is strong enough to make me think and brood over it when I am alone or when something or someone trigger it? Why is it this way? It is really something bad inside. I am trying hard not to trigger or to think about it... but sometimes its difficult..

Letting of a big sigh... having FYP to keep me occupied... having friends to make me laugh and talk so I wont think... having trainings to make me tired and sleep... having all the paper work to do to make me do work during free time.. but... free time? Sighs.. haha .. and when someone trigger it? haha.. damns...

I shall not think about it anymore...forget it... I have my FYP to work on now.. I need to complete it.. if not hannah is going to whack me upside down.. and she is putting in the effort... so i shall not waste her efforts.. and also... want die.. also not pull your partner to die.. at least complete your work.. so that she wont die... at least you give a complete project... and so that she can survive...

SIghs... fitness tomorrow.. guess I am going to miss it.. because of FYP... oh mans... so sad!!!! =( ahhhh!!!!! how how how!!!!? If i say go training sure kena killed one lors.. sighs!!! big big sigh!!! =( haish.......!!! ahhhH!!! hope tomorrow end early.. so that I can do my fyp.. then maybe can leave early.. anyway... hope i can complete now...

3 UTs week is gone.. I finished my 3 UTs already.. but this coming week I got accounting UT too.. initially going my master house because my master accouting got A+... but then today perrine keep singing song so it rains so heavily till I no mood to go.. so there goes my plate of chicken rice... but again... nevermind... she still owes me 2 plates!!! Hahaha.. =)))

Anyway... in another 3 weeks time... I have to hand in my FYP.. and seriously I dont seem to be doing much.. and its like.. I die I dont mind.. but.. I dont wish nana to die... so its like.. haish... =( So sad lorhs... I dont wanna 'hai' nana!!! So yunru.. you better work hard now... =( * pouts*

Its just 3 weeks! Very fast 3 weeks will gone... just hang in there and work hard!!! Pleaseeee!!! And after that 3 weeks... heart goes in your PP.. please... a few more months of hardwork only.. yunru.. please.. focus... and be discipline!!! PLEASSEEE!!! PLEASSEE!!!

I need someone to hold my money lah.. wah lau... keep taking cab to school.. if not pon school.. if not late for school... wah lau!!! No discipline at all sias!!! WONG YUN RU AHHH!!!!! where is your discipline? where is the dicipline that mr teo taught you? Helloooo.. yunru!!!! Come on!!!! Be discipline and work hard... its last year liao... 7 more months only!!!! Pleaseeeee go school by bus.. and reach early... and then work hard.. finshed your PP and FYP... please please please!!! Come on.. yunru!!!

I am really broke lah... heng sebast that time return me $100.. just in time... but still.. haha.. anyway what I want to blog???

Oh yes.. I love it so much lah... I finally run no more tight chest.. no more feeling 'giddy'... finally my fitness is back! =))) BUT... sad thing is... FYP... I need to sacrifice my training times for it... I really hope to have a win-win situation ... but nana is sacrificing her training for FYP.. so if I go training.. its like soooo bad... so is like.. haish =((( I dont wish to drop my fitness... because I had a hard time to gain back this... I had always been feeling tight chest or feeling giddy after fitness training... so its like... sighs... and I am very sure if I were to stop for 3 weeks... I am sure it will drop... =((( Sighs.. see how bahs... maybe I will sacrifice 1 or 2 trainings.. either RP or Livewire.. or maybe like what someone suggested.. alternate weeks... so see how bahs... somemore this week might be the last training my tong tong, sai sai, chan chan, jane jane will be around.. so maybe I shall go and had fun with them... then after that go RP.. then last week go back livewire.. see how bahs... see how things goes...

Alright... finish watching my Green Forest, My Home.. its time to start working hard.. be diligent Yunru already... =))) come on.. just another 7 montths!!! Study hard for accounting.. so that get another A.. then I can relax for it already...!!!

WORK HARD! STUDY HARD! PLAY HARD! TRAIN HARD!

Many things to blog... First of all, once again I am declaring the death of my laptop again... boring man! Sighs.. amanda just sold her laptop for about $700++ should I do that too? I spent 3k for this and its only 2years and 2 months old.. =( No point everytime reformatting it.. and I still couldnt find the root of the problem.. =( *pouts!* And this coming week is my UT week.. 3 Uts in a week... so how am I going to survive? And not forgetting my FYP!! Ahhhh!! I bloody hate this for nuts!

2ndly, sighs... I didnt complete my PP... reason being mr teo said he doesnt know what am I talking.. oh shit... I really think like I am going to stay in RP for another year man! Oh mans... sighs! This is so freaking sickening... repeating another year for one PP!! =( And not forgetting my 1 pathetic point of CE I couldnt complete.. because I was very sick this week and having 2 days of MCs..

Well.. I used up my leave... and so even I was still not feleing welll.. I still went school on Friday.. becasue no more leavve... I used up 2 and even used the last 1 "unpay" leave.. hahah =x and from now onwards the only thing that I can pray for is everything is fine for me now.. no more sick bug! If not I really will die!!!

Now is the main thing that I wished to blog.. the 3 games that I played during the week: FMSS, SSS & Extremes Junior...

FMSS
This game... liked I said before.. to be honest.. I wasnt prepared.. because it is always better to keep your expectation low so that the level of disappointment is lower... but anyway I started first... I was shocked.. and that day was the 1st day of the sick bug attack...

My weakness of that day was not able to stick close with my opponent... she got away pretty fast... not only that.. because the coach of FM knows that Panda is the person who will get the pass from the GK... they double guard her... and due to that.. I have to run.. but thats my weakness =( I couldnt run out.. or rather my way of running doesnt help me get free at all... I really have to work on this... knowing that I am short and unable to handle long and strong pass.. I better go for front and short passes.. so I need to think of ways to do that.. Other than I supposed nothing much for WD...

The next shocked that I have is when I was asked to play C! Its been pretty long since I played that.. eh.. no actually I was asked to played that for RP that time.. but well.. I sucked in C lah... C isnt my position I think... after really experiencing in C.. I think I suck in C than in WD... my weakness is already being gan giong.. and not just that I have problem catching long strong passes.. definately C is not for me.. and after playing WA with Chan they all against RP that day.. I supposed actually WA is much much better than I play C... I was more useful when I play WA than I play C.. . C is both attacking and defending... and when both combined there are lots of stuffs.. and not just that.. playing with RP & LW.. its the same.. cause like.. everytime ball is brought down to attack.. I'm like useless.. the ball is between WA, GA, GS... its not because they cant see me.. but I supposed my position and my way of running doesnt benefit them... and that was the case when against FM... during attacking... I was like useless.. and defending time I also not good.. so overall sucks.. hahah =x

SSS
SSS match... hmm.. this match... was the match that I was like.. -.- because its been a long time since I play with RP.. and its like... for a long time I have been playing with RP... and during this time.. I have been trying hard to improve my way of defending of mr teo's way which is different from tony... so my first quarter was s**t... my opponent keep running away.. and was like quite bad lah... my 2nd quarter wasnt that good either... and yes.. forgot to mention.. my throat actually kill me.. it was so dry and painful.. so I had a hard time in breathing because nose is running.. and when I tried breathing through mouth.. it was worse.. I still hear lots of shouting from tony.. and =( tried to do what he wants... then 3rd quarter... he at first said I out.. then later he put carrie.. then in the end it was the last game.. i was so sad lah... but after that.. nevermind.. the 2nd team played with their sec1 team.. and losing.. then tony requested to have the 1st team that played before to play again.. and that was my chance agian.. hooray.. so after that.. this was the game I supposed I played much better... I kept close with her... and yeah.. I finally able to intecept a overhead pass!!! I move my legs.. and jump up and intercepted the ball! hooray.. finally.. [but after soooo long in netball=(]
Weakness: I have to make sure I adapt back to Tony's asap!!! I must be able to move back to prevent that pass fast enough.. must be able to stop my opponent from cutting to the other side also..

Extreme Juniors
This game I didnt expect.. but still praying to play.. then well.. at the 3rd quarter... though upset when sw was asked to play WD.. but I think the reason was because sw is able to stick with opponent more close than me... furthermore game with FMSS, sticking close with opponent was my greatest mistake of all.... but after that idiot asked to rest for 1 quarter.. so sw went back WA, cheryl go C then I was playing WD.. and knowing that I tried hard to stick... and tried hard to intercept ball.. and during that quarter.. it was not as bad as 4th quarter... that quarter.. I still managed to stick.. but too gan giong.. and missed pass 1 to cheryl... but at 4th quarter.. was a chaos...supposed to be grabbing that chance.. i threw it away.. by offsiding so many times!!! damn it.. cannot balance at all.. and sw said.. was because I was slow at reacting.. so when I know i have to run.. i double my speed.. and so i lost my balance =( and not only that.. i keep contacting.. but i managed to do a interception.. =) and its a overhead interception again,.. but I really need to do something about it.. if not i will lose my chance even more.. I must must really work on my weakness man!!! He was really pissed with my offsides yesterday.. :S

Overall my mistake and needs to change:
1. Gan giong-ness when passing
2. Running for space to get the ball especially in goal-D!!!!!!!
3. Sticking close with opponent
4. my OFFSIDESSS!!!! ahhh!!!!
5. Run 1 more step then jump up instead of jump slant

WORK HARDDDDD!!!!

Labels: Netball

::18/08/87::
::Leo::
::YNPS, ESSS, RP, SIM-UOL::
::Outgoing, Friendly, Lame::
::Emotional, Sensitive, Short::

::PE Teacher::
::Netball Coach::
::Camp Instructor::

::Netball, Basketball, Running::
::Swimming, Badminton::
::Manchester United::
::Sleep & Slack::
::Green, Orange, Black::
::ES Netball Team, Livewire::
::Buddies, Disciples::
::Shifu(Mr Teo), Hubby::
::Sister & Family::
::Team RP::
::Sesame Gang::
::Piggies::
::MeiNu, Tings, Da Jie::

=PSP=
=All who I love live happily=
=Move on to future=
=Not living in the past=
=Able to learn to accept the truth=
=To be self-discipline=
=Not to repeat mistakes=
=To get gd grades in Uni=

(",)MaStEr_pY; Cindy =); Chee Kui; Jason; Mimiyan; Panda =); Raquel; sIhUa =); xIaOwOnG =) AdEliNe/a> aLeXia; Charmaine; JoEy; JoHnSoN; qUeEn; piGg; sHiReEn; Yan Qing ; Yong Yeow; aBbY; aIzhEn; fAiZaH; hAnAh; jOeY aNg; lYdIa; mJ; sAbBy; sHiKiN; vAn SoH; xUeLi; mIcH; oScAr; bIrD; QiNwEi; RuRy; WeElInG; ~Sister~;

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