If I had a choice... I will obviously choose Livewire... but so many times I doesnt have it... because I have a role to play in RPSC... I am the president... I need to set a good example... also at the same time I need to be responsible... if you are not happy said it to my face... and not nagging or keep telling others about it.... Do you think I have a choice? Do you think I love to miss the training? Do you think I dont know that the Year-end league is coming? All the answer is a NO!


Alot of times I am caught in between the both... when I can choose Livewire I will... but when at crucial times like last Friday I have got no choice... I know its very bad of me... but seriously... I cant choose... and I does hate it too... next Friday I chose Livewire over SC already... for this I just need to sacrifice my SC side for awhile... please put yourself into my shoes first before you wish to comment anything... or rather when you wish to comment... comment it straight into my face.. save the ears of others....


I know I need to be responsible for the team also... but I cant choose... can I?


I doubt my wish to play for Livewire most of the time is also gone... I missed the trainings... and at the same time I am already not as good as Perrine... guess I just need to make sure I train up my own stamina on my own.. and at the same I need to learn the sudden burst on my own... getting shit to teach me the zone defence and then hope I can play and its a bonus I can get to play... I cant expect much as I didnt train....


Alrights finally 2nd event is over... I am glad to say that this Night Cycling event is rather successful... although at the start it was quite messy and there were injuries before the 1st pit stop.... (anyway I did my first-aid job) Hahaha! But after breifing every marshals about it everything gone rather smoothly... though need to keep asking those 'slow' riders to keep up everything seems fine... =) Hopefully no people will complain about us... as we need to have another cycling event for our move over to Woodlands... This time its not as tiring as the one I went with the ES sports leader... but this time the distance I think was longer... we cycled for about 7 to 8 hours with 4 pit stops... from school to Macritchie Reservoir and than to dont know what Defu lane.. then to the Mobil at ECP I think and than to Kallang Mac and last is Sentosa! =) Thanks all for your hardwork! =)


At Sentosa... I had fun playing... =) though before the games... I was like so tired and stuffs but just tried to be hyper and be fun la... but there was this time when I was like so tired... then Janelle came over and talked to us... and sayang us.. haha... then beach soccer and beach frisbee.. though we lost all.. but really fun... falling down quite a few times because of beach soccer... realised I can play GK for soccer.. hahaha!!! And once because Chen Hui trying to kiss me.. and I just get lower to the ground... but [u] pulled me up =) thinking about it I'm so glad about it cause its like after the game end... she hugged you... and CH tries to kiss me.. and everyone left... then you were the only who stayed... then you just came over and said "qi lai" and offered your hands and pulled me up =)

Labels: Netball, RP

I am not going to complain about me being the President, because I will always remember Mr Teo's word "You chose this path yourself!" Well I just want to vent out my anger or rather say my experience here... and even so I HAVE NOT REGRET JOINING SC!


It is really not easy being the President of SC... looking at Dino (last year P), I thought it is still managable and not that tough... but I guess I was wrong... I really wish to do a much better job than Dino... I want to bring SC up to a higher level that no one had done it... I want to have all the experiences... I want to make sure I helped my members to get whatever they want... Can I do it?


I must really say one thing... I am more fortunate than Dino... I had a handful of good, potential, disciplined, committed members.... I really hope I can do a better job than Dino with the help of them... because he doesnt... and I have...


Being a President its just like being the meat in a sandwich... in between two pieces of bread... 1 is your advisor (Janelle) another will be my members (YC, YK, YX, Dine, Jo, Joey, Alex, Alam, James, Andrew, Jon, Dap, Sharon)... Dont talk about Janelle first.... sometimes when there are conflicts between the members is already a big headahce...


Also, when you dont know whether to use soft or hard approach... Being too soft they will climb over your head, being too hard they become rebellious and not to mention they are already young adults... people who wont like hard approach... To ask them to be self-discipline also very hard... and different people different level of commitments... you sure cannot make everyone having the same level of commitments.. but when there is a different level.. people start complaining.... why this person can do this, why I cant... why is it I can forgo something.. he cant? People starts feeling the unhappiness... and what can I do to resolve this? It is all up to individual... and I cant say everyone must miss trainings because of SC.. because its depend on them which is their priority.. and also I myself also hated missing trainings...


To handle, understand, help every single one of the 13 members I have is really not easy... and when sometime when things goes wrong.... especially between the 2 bread.. is the worst thing that can ever imagine... being middle is shit... and its never possible to compromise or make every 13 including janelle happy.... Furthermore... you need to put yourself in the shoes of them... thinking will they be tired or whatever...


Being 1... you need to understand and control your feelings before you do anything... you need to find out the truth and control your anger before you really flare up... you need to seperate work and personal.... so that you wont mixed up the thing... you need to care for everyone...


All these added to the stress when everytime event is up... when all the unforseen outcomes surfaces out.... It is really not easy being the President... and I shall emphasize again.. I am not complaining... just feeling a little tired for now....


Anyway, I must really say... in RP for 1 year and about 5 months... I must say I really learnt some things here.... and slowly I am seeing things that what will happen in my future working life...

Labels: RP

I hereby apologise to all Livewire club members and Mr Teo that this coming Friday, when it might be the day when everyone will be present except me... I am so sorry about it....


I hate it... I really hate it... I hate missing training... especially missing Livewire's training... but I just got to miss it once again!!!! Damn!!! Its sports club event again... I really wish I can dont go to SC thing also... but... I just got to miss it!!! Why is it again and again I just need to miss it... Year-End league is coming so near... and I so feel like playing and so feel like taking over Perrine's position or rather fight with Perrine for that position or whoever who is taking the mid-court... but.. but.. but... I going to miss training again.. which means the chance get lower again... and I didnt get to play for Livewire on Friday because of RP again!!! Damn.. everything is RP... haish.... but think again... I cannot complain.. because.... this is the path that I chose myself... no one force me to choose this path.. I chose it myself... therefore whatever it is... I just got to accept it...haish!!! I just hope that I wont miss another training nor what already... because... I REALLY WANT TO PLAY FOR LIVEWIRE SO MUCH THAT NO ONE CAN EVER UNDRESTAND!!!"

Labels: Netball

I dont know why yesterday wasnt a good a day actually... I go school late again... was feeling very tired... really not enough of sleep at all...


Reached school just nice because took cab with Wany from Redhill... Was feeling so tired, but have to force myself awake so as to prevent Daniel from penalizing me... Wonder if I will get good grades here...


Finally end of the class, went to the container finish up the RJ and went to sleep... At about 4.40pm James called and said everyone is waiting for me... oh well.. I jsut rushed down... guess I was really so tired that my head was very heavy! I had a damn bad headache... well guess due to no people is around... she was angry... and mayeb because of my attitude when I went down... but I was really feeling damn tired and headachy...


She gave a irritated reply when I called her... well I know it wasnt a good time to say anything therefore I just shut up... and then in a while guess she felt alright le.. then she asked if we were having games later on is it because James said its Friday and I could go home rest but I replied I still got game till 10pm later... Well... still feeling headachy at that moment... until yvonne helped me buy panadol... =)


Panadol doesnt really help me alot.. I guess sooner or later I will get immune from panadol... though I felt better... but during games I felt headachy again.... well... we reached Kallang really late.. because of the talk....


Haish... here is the thing that I really got upset already... I keep getting subsitute out because of Evelyn... I really hate the feeling of being sub out... Since secondary school I had always been sub out until I got into RP... I love the feeling of playing... I love it when I was year 1... but slowly more players come in... and my chances also get lower... I really hate it... really hate it... if I dont get this chance to play... I really wonder at times... next year when players start coming in.. will I still get to play? I am so afraid I wont get to play again... keep being sub out after 1 quarter... others just get the chance to play and play and play...


At a point of time... I keep trying to pyscho myself... its ok not to play.. compare myself and Kim, Gui Zhu and Hanah... at least I get the chance to start.... but I just couldnt get over it... my heart was really sinking inside soooo badly!!! Then Livewire vs Avalanhce... I asked Mr Teo if I could play.. but he said no... because its not because he doesnt want us to play.. but because we here because of RP and we are appointment holder... well when he said to me.. I cried... I really just cried out.. because I really couldnt get to play at all!!! I was depressed.. real despressed...


But I know one thing... I cannot show my sadness to the sec1 gers.. therefore I kept my smile when I saw them... and well... but I really take it because after that I was being sub out again.. and well... I cried at the end of it when abby talks to me... I really cannot control that I just cried out.... I hugged Cheryl also... thanks tong for that hug... I felt eal sad for not playing... but well... for now when I am sort of being stable already... guess I just need to take it easy... and train so hard that my standard is far from Evelyn that he just cannot put her in.... and also... I knwo I am selfish.. but I just want to play.. and by doing so.. also means that I am benefitting the team too....


Whatever it is... now I had said everything... and I just need to be strong.... and I need to turn failure into positive motivation... and because I need to use my action to show her... and because I am like her.... I need to lock everything into a box and put behind my mind... and like Keng Wi said, like this also cry.. so yeah... guess I am fine now.. and just got to keep training and training...

Labels: Netball, RP

I have lots of things to blog... I have been blogging in notepad... one of the days when I am free I am going to blog out.. but let me blog about today first....


I woke up at 2pm.. then I went to school for a Sports Talk on nutrition... well, as I promised Janelle.. i will be a smiling Yunru so I saw her and started crapping with her...


After that it was the beep test for Floorballers... oh well.. feeling still a little upset about it.. but well its lock inside a box... I wont open it to think again... the best of the floorballer is Mei Wei, 8.5.... and in netball is 8.3... well well well... now I am so determined to do even much better now... really must train hard now... and achieve what I want to achieve...


After everything... helped Janelle in packing up a little and then we started saying about dinner... and well she said call Dr Loke... tried calling him a few times... but he didnt pick up because he went for a run.... hmm... at that time Janelle, Dine, Jo and I just keep crapping and talking... then until a point Janelle said, if he didnt pick up his phone then we will just go home... then he picked up... Janelle passed the phone to me... and I started all my crapz by saying I miss him want to have dinner with him.. and got to wait for him for 30mins!


We went back to the container first while Janelle went to her office... then waited for the 2 of them... finally they came... and then took cab down... and Dr Loke is just so crap... now I really understand why Janelle loves to argue with him... he really like Daddy... blurred and stubborn but will give in easily....


Dine brought us to the wrong place... and so we walked down the correct place... then Dr Loke was already there... then we bought our food... oh gosh... Dr Loke ordered so much food.... and then started crapping and eating.. bloody hell... kena disturbed agian.... saying my knowledge is really very ppoor.. and started to test me on geography!!!! Argggh... and yes.. I failed all.. =X


Around 11+++ then we say go home... well.. quite fun and dots going out with them...

Labels: RP

My first day of school
Today is the first day of school, well the night I couldnt sleep, I dont know why but my mind was full of thoughts... thinking about all sorts of RP stuffs...


Woke up pretty early today... 6.45am.. well I felt as though I didnt sleep at all... so was like tired and like not tired...


Filled up my water, wash up, took my bread and there I go.... Took the train to Pasir Ris, though I do not feel as tired as before, but I guess I need some rest so that I wont fall asleep in class...


Reached the class on time... therefore decided to be like this for this semester... first meeting... it was rather crappy... the class is quiet... and nobody responding to hannah lim... oh ya, hannah lim is my facilitator...


She asked people to volunteer to read... well I dare not... because I got second thoughts... oh well.. I guess I just need to chnage this bsd habit of mine if I really want to score well... slowly I did speak up... then followed by doing the work... welll... I did quite a few of the work.. a tap on my shoulder =) self-affirmation.. hahaha... =X


I guess... I am working on my goals... I just need to keep up the good work... =) Also, for the meeting it was a pretty long one... started late.. ended late... haish... the people slightly not disciplined... and guess what? my VP and I shouted at them... =( I really do not wish to shout but guess really no choice... because need to clear all the stuffs for next week...


Going to miss Livewire training agian... I really hate it.... its again between interest and responsibility.... and also... "I chose this path myself!" well... therefore I need to choose the latter... I am really again.. for missing training.... I sincerely appologise here... give me after this week... next week I should be free already... For the past I had already chose the fomer... and now I guess I need to choose the latter as this is really quite important... and I should set a good example... hopefully I am not making the wrong choice...


I will train on my own... and train really hard during my school training to compensate the training I miss for Livewire.... I will make myself fit and also having the stamina and speed....


Laugh for the day... today met Kelly up for lunch... and we went down... no space.. then we saw Dr Loke... then Kelly went to call him.. then we sat down at the table beside him... later on.. I saw the vegetable i dont like... and as usual... my dustbin - Kelly... got to accept all my vegetables... and as usual... I do it secretly when she is away.. hahaha... but this time round.. not Mr Teo but Dr Loke who said me for not eating vegetable....


"Wei.. dont eat vegetable arh"


"Sportsman dont eat vegetable... somemore Sports CLub.. just like serene"


Oh well... I replied no.. I did... and said at least I better than Serene... then he said Serene is hopeless already...


Then he told Kelly that next time if got Netball outing.. go eat Vegetarian -.- well.. thats all.. no mood to say much also... oh yah... last but ot least... because he didnt really hold his laptop properly.. then i said... 'xi wang ni de laptop diao" and well.. i get this for reply, "tomorrow not yet over le.." well... tomorrow is the day i long waited for... -PHYSICAL TRAINING!!!


Alrights.. get to sleep early... so to get enough energy for lesson and training.. =)

Labels: RP

FARK!! I PISSED!!!


Reason being? Because this blog sucks!!! Its like yesterday I blog 2 entries... and it was gone... I re-do my Goals for the semester because I thought it was gone... then now... its back.. and the 2 entries that I done yesterday is gone.... its like what the FARK larhs... damn!!! Forget it... I shall just go to bed... DAMN!

Studies
1. Semester result of GPA 3.5, meaning at least B+ for all modules.
2. Clearing my CE points by end of the semester. (30points to go!)
3. Listing down the questions, things to do, format of PP.
4. December - if there is no oversea trip or any major event, finish up my PP
5. Sleep early! Not after 12am! So as to be energetic for school!

CCA
1. As president, I must be daring and confident.
2. Leading my members well.
3. Ablity to do a much better job then last year for Sports Club.
4. Its a must to get level 9 for beep test, by the end of this year!
5. Able to run and get the ball from defence down.
6. Passing to be accurate, hard and fast!

"If your mind can conceive it and your heart can believe it, you can achieve it"

Labels: RP

Oh well... I think I am now in the depressing mood.. I really need some time to get over it...


3 friends have at least 2 A for their result... how can I get happy when I only have 2B, 1B+ and 1 C+? Its just my fault... no point in comparing...


Maybe its even harder to accept this result..? Knowing I could get better result.. but because of my slacking mode... and bo chap attitude?


I must learn this lesson! It really hits me hard... it just hits real hard... damn hard...


I feel like crying... really feel like crying hard now... but its no point crying over spilled milk... I supposed I just need to learn this lesson.. and make sure I study hard and try to get B for all daily grades and then UT same work hard and get average of 3...


I must not just aim at maintaining a 3... but even higher... because comparing with others... I am just a lousy student also... I need to work hard to get even a better grade... I supposed now I know what electives I should take already... haish... I must get over soon!!!!

Labels: RP

Result and class allocation are out... But I not sure if I am happy or I am sad... To be positive, I should be happy because I managed to keep my GPA as 3.0... Well, on the other hand, I am upset because this time round I did well in my UT, I managed to get an average of at least 3.0 for all the modules... but its because of my daily grades that make my overall remain as 3.0... If I were to study harder, or rather more hardworking, I should be able to pull up my overall rather than maintaining...


Well, its over I supposed there is no point in dwelling on it... I supposed all I can do now is to make sure history dont repeat... make sure that the lesson learn in year 1(doing well in daily grade) and year 2, sem1(doing well in UT) are join together... and making sure this time round, year 2, sem2 I did well...


Simply, now my target is no longer in maintaining a GPA of 3.0 anymore... but rather making sure my GPA become 3.25 at least!


I really need to make sure I do well, concentrate in my daily module and also making sure my UT are good... I need to... and I must to...


My stamina, determination, perserverance, never give up attitude must and shall reflect both academic and sports... this is what I must make sure!!! To be a sportswoman, isnt just being good in sports, but in everything.. so this shall be my goal for the next semester, 3rd October to 17th April!

Labels: RP

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