In another 30mins time, November is gone... well let me briefly talk about Novemeber...


At the start of November, it was a very wonderful one... everything was smooth for me... but I guess good times will always end... but this ending sucks great time...


Well, I really the start of the month... everything was so nice for me... it was the best memory that I have with 1... 1 and I was having the best time... we had so much laughters and stuffs... 1 was so caring and concern to me... but well.. everythin had become memory...


Dont wish to say much already... I am just hoping its going to be a good time for me in Dec... but well Dec its going to be a very busy monthn for me... with OBS, 3D animax camp, sister bday.... it actually took half of my holiday.... and I need to do my PP... theres so much for me to do... and rush....


Song for the month: Shoulder to cry on...


Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you by your side,


And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone,
cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause I'll be there.


All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on


Everyone needs a shoulder to cry one
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause
I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!


And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....


Wheres my shoulder?

Wah kaox! I didnt know I got soooo suay until like this!!! Fate was calling me... but I missed all the chances... Wah KAOX!!! Only Dine understand what I meant.. and she must be laughing until mad!!! Grrr!!! Stupid me!!! GRRRRR!!!! DAMN!!!!! :'(

I made up my mind already.. I decided not to go OBS -9 days.. I decided to go for the 4 days matches... I dont know if its the right choice, but I chose this myself then I shant complain at the end of it.. this is something Mr Teo taught me before... whatever decision is I chose myself, no one forces me.. therefore at the end of it, I shant complain... Some people will just scold me stupid for choosing the game over OBS.. but well, if I really ask my heart, what I want, the answer is 4 matches.. so well.. just listen to my heart and go for it...


Tomorow is UT.. and tuesday also UT.. I dont know if I can survived for this 2 UT.. I realised my heart for studies had really dropped low... real low... now I can only can say I really know my studies well for maybe just System Analysis and as for Web Application, I usually only can do halfway... haish.. Networking and Security UT tomorrow and Monday... can I survive through? I wonder... Where is my heart for my goal of GPA 3.5? I am now not working for it except for System... finally I got A for her lesson... work so hard for it and finally I got it.. but where is the rest? -shakes head- I really wonder.... wanting to get into uni so desperately but yet not doing anything for Networking and Security modules...


Anyway RP played finish 2 games already... first game was against SAJC and it was a good game... the team really fights hard... and its real hard... I supposed Dr Loke and Janelle are happy with our performance on that day... I think the team really fights so hard that Chen Hui had a cramp and still in pain on saturday, me having back pain till today much better... anyway, hoping we can really win VJC too because its going to be on a Saturday at 3.30pm... we had never really play under the sun before.. hopefully everything is fine... and the play is how we played against SAJC or even better! 2nd game was against MI-A... gosh... it was a damn lousy game... the game was so slow motion... and its really slowo motion... I must say I dont play well on that day too... I played WD for the 1st 2 quarters and GD for the next 2 quarters.. if I were taller... I think I can really play well for GD.. but fat hope! I am short! Just hope that the performance against MI-A is the last time RP Avanti will play...


Alright, I guess I am really old already... I cannot take the consecutive games... Monday I had a game, played only a quarter so wasnt that bad... after that Thursday had a game and I played all 4 quarters and well it was a "hiong" one... and fell down once, and dont know if I hit my back... but after that the back hurts and at first I thought was just normal because that will happen sometimes... then Friday got training... the back doesnt feel good.. but I just got to keep training because I really need to achieve what I want so much... though I ice my back on Thursday and Friday but Saturday the pain didnt subsize at all! When I walk I could also feel the pain! But I need to play... then now with pain on my back... I having muscle aching on my limbs already... haish... I am so old!!! Just 3 consecutive days only! Damn! Tomorrow I got a game and that game is important also! If I were to get to play, I need to play well to achieve what I want to!!! Just have to keep icing I supposed... hopefully tomorrow will be better...


SMS that day... I was in the wrong as my sms doesnt sound "nice" at all... but I just get my message across... and now I supposed its really all up to me already... I just need to keep doing and doing, training and training to fight for it.. to get what I really wants... wanted to apologise for my sms sound not nice.. but didnt want to listen me out.. and during training nothing was said... till now... nothing was said... and all I know is that I just need to keep training and training... nothing else I can know to do because I just dont know what is it to be done... Though I was glad that I said what its inside my heart but I wonder does it worth it as now totally nothing was being mentioned... I wonder... but well everything had been done, time cant goes back... therefore everytime if chance is given now, I just got to make sure I really played my best and if possible.. even better everytime... to achieve IT! Just hope everything will be fine soon...


I want to be strong, really strong in my point... to put everything aside... but sometimes its really hard... but everything is not beyond my control already... its up to (*).... nothing else I can do already... all I could do is just to do my best everytime...


Must I be strict now? Maybe I should... if not everything is not being done... I wonder will the people in charge of Tennis will do up the report.... I wonder.. and wonder... and wonder... Will we able to help the volleyball team? Will we be able to do Glitz night a wonderful one? Will we be able to do everything well? Sometimes its really doesnt pay to be nice.. I guess I just need to be strict upon it already.... No initiative, no repsonsiblity, no sense of urgency, no courtesy..... if one day I were to shout... please dont blame me... because is you all that force me to be like this!


My life now only revolves around Netball, Studies, Sports Club and adding 1 more, 3D animation.. and with every 1 have a problem or work to do... its really headahce... and which is happening now... 3D animation I need to quickly plan for the team-building camp.. because I am the event manager of the IG.. Studies I had already said and with my PP.. and with the "situation" now.. I wonder if I can do my PP... then SC.. with some events coming up... especially Glitz... and the IVP reports... then Netball consist of RP and Livewire... I really wonder will I "peng kui" before holidays.... and one very important thing in my life... my friends... I wonder how far will we go... -shakes head-


Time for some happy things =) Hannah owe me Haggen Dazz! Hee... =X And despite getting scolded on Thursday... I am happy with my own performance to the extent of 8/10... =) I supposed I had done not too bad just that theres a few part that I didnt listen to Tony.. =X Also other than I am not tall enough that Janelle even said she will help mee to pull me 5cm longer! =X I supported well, I didnt drop the long pass given by Chen hui =) I managed get my passes through for majority =)) I managed to get my opponent blow for contacting by blocking her way! =) ) Which means I managed to be faster than her... also I managed to get to the loose ball faster than the opponent and she got blow for contacting! =) I managed to intercept 1 centre pass =) 1 bad thing... got warned for offside !!! =( I just want to challenge for the ball and I got warned =( But lucky its the last quarter and so for the last few balls I just let it pass... =X For yesterday game.. though I know I have not done that well.. but there is something that I had done well too.. I interceptted a few balls (some more 1 is rebound) then I blocked the GA from going in because I know once she passed me its dead for me! Anyway, also maybe I am self-contented too easily.. but with these little things I feel happy will keep me going rather than keep thinking all the bad things.. and knowing the good things just need to strengthen it more =)


Well, I think nothing much to really blogged... because most of the happenings are already up... =) Jiayou to myself and Avanti and Livewire for the ongoing League... =)

Maybe depression hits me again... maybe due to my menses....


Everything isnt going right after the 1st week of November... 1st week of Nov was a great time for me... but I guess happiness doesnt last long... what to do? what can I say? Everything had gone wrong for ME!


Studies slowly CMI already... good thing is holiday is coming soon... but during that time busy doing PP also... CCA.... getting really headahce... SC or Netball both headaches... Really dont know how to handle the SC members... hwo to make them work... dont wish to reprimand or pester them to do work.... but they arent doing anything... Really dont know what can I do... Netball wise, really not sure if the team can move on... so many problems had surfaced... tomorrow is our 1st match... will we be able to withstand the problem and win? Or will we fall apart now? I wonder and ponder....


Livewire... I dont wish to say much here... those who know will know... anyway... really dont know which to choose also.. if RP Netball is really not going KL... I will have to choose between OBS and 4 matches of Livewire... I really dont wish to think about it... but I need to make an decision fast too...

Going for the 4 matches doesnt means I will play alot... but not going means I totally cannot play... and so decrease the chances of me ......... OBS is a very rare chance.... I really cant make the decision... I believe I will regret in either decision I choose...

Well, well, well... the league is coming... =) I am going to play for Livewire!!! =) Dream comes true now... hopefully I will be able to play my very best for the team... =) Not forgetting RP also... dont know if I will really play for all the quarters... but just hopefully its a yes!!! I truly hope to play for all!!! Really ALL!!! =) I will really do my best... I will.. I will and I will....


ANyway, seeing this.. means I have made my decision... I am not resting.. and actually I train today.... and it was really painful after taking out the tape... but well... I guess its worth it... or rather.. I dont regret lah... I just want to play well... and really be the good player... and also being (YOUR) one of the best players... heee =) =X


Be it in LIVEWIRE or RP... whatever it is... I will want to play to my best for all the matches.... and no longer like in Pesta Sukan or National League.... In NL.. I was given the chance.. but there were really matches that I dont play well.. for now... in JL for RP... I will!!!!! and I need to!!!! For Pesta Sukan... though not given alot of chance... and even if so for now... whatever chance given for me now... I will still do my best.... even though I know I'm isnt the best or whatever.. I will still do my best so as not to disappoint myself.. and the team...


*All are said for myself... =XXXXXXX* Things for my mind to listen and to perform...

Labels: Netball

Just went to have my ankle and knee checked... and well.. my ankle he said cause haven really recover thats why then dont know what... than my knee.. I dont know.. he just said like nothing or not serious.. but its bandaged la... haish... sick lah... then I need to rest for a week at least!!!


The league is next week!!! Which is in 1 WEEK time.. or rather less than a WEEK!!! GRRRR... HOW!???? SHOULD I or SHOULDNT???? When he said must rest for a weel.. I said.. I choose to ignore... then he said.. at least 1 week.. then sort of bo chup la.. then again think.. can I really ignore that? Haish... I really dont knowww.w.w..w.w.... DAMN!!!!!


4 MATCHES IN NEXT WEEK!!!!! 2 FOR LIVEWIRE... 2 FOR RP!!!!!!! Thinking at 1 side... because of 4 matches.. all the more I must rest.. because its a long way to go.. but think again... I so desperately want to play la... not playing is like slicing a piece of my meat!!!!! DAMNN... HOW!!!???

Labels: Netball

::18/08/87::
::Leo::
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