Just a short entry for my dearest SESAME GANG!

GUESS WHAT!? I WAS CHEATED!!!!

But that shows I am innocent ok!?

But I still cant believe it that I really believes that miss claire about everything! Damns!

Labels: Sesame

When will I ever learn?

Soon in about 3 weeks time I wont be in Nokia anymore. I thought I learn alot of things like calling to stranger and talk abotu serious matter. Writing an email for enquiry. Processing invoices using SAP. Blah, blah and blahs...

Just today after talking to francis, it makes me realise I have yet to learn the most important issue and somehow I really hate myself for this... and it seems that I am going to tear any moment...

So what is that something that I have yet to learn? This something is something that causes a problem for me maybe a year ago. This is something that I told myself that I shouldnt do it when I working in Nokia, which somehow I have forget about it after a while...

When you are happy, people crowds you. When you are sad, sian or whatever negative, people goes away from you.

Cant you get this message across your head!?!

I remember I told myself before I started working, I need to be positive, dare to open up, and interact. Not to show the tired face or whatever to people. It seems that I have been showing it for the past few weeks!!!!

Oh come on, you know it very well and you have experienced it the result of both being negative and positive. WHY CANT YOU THROW AWAY THE NEGATIVE & MAINTAIN THE POSITIVE!?!

It is not difficult to interact, talk and have fun with the people around you. Just join in the fun and talk and no matter how tired or what dont think about it. Just play around and feel tired when you are around and not when people is around you!!!

Dont lose these best people in NOKIA even before you leave, especially the one that affects you and matter to you alot...

Weekends again... And its another week without any new entry again...


Well, result of my school had come out already. SMU rejected me already. I was feeling rather upset on that day. All my dreams, hopes are dashed. My dream of a hostel life. My hope of participating and representing SMU in their sports. Everything was gone just because of a letter.


Alwyn kept telling me to appeal to SMU because to him SIM is nothing. SMU is definitely better than SIM. He kept nagging me and ask me not to argue with him. And well, I email to SMU to ask if I can appeal. The answer was a YES, but I dont know how to go about it. I not sure how should I write the appeal email to them and furthermore I will need to go down to RELC to make payment and register to UOL already. I do not have much time to wait for SMU to give me an answer as the last day I can ask for a refund is on the 30th of June. But again... -shrugs- Also, actually it really seems that I have set my mind on SIM already. Getting ready to study in SIM.

Well, I guess maybe I should just not think about it and focus what I can do and plan for my future in SIM. =))

So end of story for my studies. What else can I blog then? Work?

Ok, so 13th July will be my very last day in NOKIA. Well, I guess I feeling kind of sad here because is like the feeling is already there. I work there for 3months already. I really have fun with all my colleagues and is really nice knowing all of them. So kind of cant bear to leave them actually.

And I can have the choice to study part-time and work full-time in Nokia. But I think I will be so lazy, tired to study if I were to do so. Because is like now without studyin, I am already so tired and so if there is studies I guess I will be so lazy to do it? But on other hand, most of my Sat & Sun I will be slacking away and is like that will be the time for me to study and I still have income and so that next time when I start to work, I wont be so tight to pay daddy the money.

Well, I guess the best is to study full-time and work part-time. Putting emotions and feelings away, I guess this is the best solution to everything. I can earn money and at the same time studying without feeling too tired. So I guess now is to find a part-time job. But I guess I will only want to start that in maybe September, I want to enjoy a slacking life after 13th July before school starts and then adapting to the study life in SIM and then slowly putting in part-time work into my routine.

I think I will definitely miss the people in NOKIA. All the nice nice people in the department, well glad is that those nice nice people, I have their MSN and number so still can keep in contact with them =)). And I do hope they will still contact me.. hehe..

Entry 2...

Last friday went out with Cyn, Kenneth & Pig. Went for dinner and then chill at Clinic and then to Karaoke. Cool huh? Out till late with them. Haha! Its a very nice day out with them and have fun laughing and joking around. Anyway it was quite long since I last saw Pig & Cyn and Kenneth is even worse lahs.. Anyway, Cyn & Kenneth nice ppl lahs... send me home wors.. hehe... thanks =)) Love Cyn soo much!! =)) Muackss Oh ya, and Kenneth treat us dinner and Cyn treat us drinks lors... muacks to the 2 of dem... =))

Anyway there is something I must say here, Cyn sang a song name, "Zhong Jian" and the lyrics is nice and its like it makes me think even further which I will say after this. Well, heres the lyrics and the thought I have about this song...

"他恨下雨天他酷爱古典乐
他沉默寡言他时常逛书店
那一天他讲了丘比特常失手爱情太危险
他跟我约好了让彼此自由一点

我开始想念和他的每一天
聊了一整夜说自己的从前
忽然在心理面我隐约有一种痛的感觉
也许是我被他命中了我心中的缺

我猜是我中了箭才遇上他第七天
那一瞬间我有些晕眩像全世界从此被偷走时间

我中了爱情的箭
很痛但是心很甜
我躲不开也不想避免
他没发现却在我身上应验
我中了一箭

我开始想念和他的每一天
聊了一整夜说自己的从前
忽然在心理面我隐约有一种痛的感觉
也许是我被他命中了我心中的缺

我猜是我中了箭才遇上他第七天
那一瞬间我有些晕眩像全世界从此被偷走时间

我中了爱情的箭
很痛但是心很甜
我躲不开也不想避免
他没发现却在我身上应验
我中了一箭

我猜是我中了箭才遇上他第七天
那一瞬间我有些晕眩像全世界从此被偷走时间
我中了爱情的箭
很痛但是心很甜
我躲不开也不想避免
他没发现却在我身上应验我中了一箭"

Love is funny, out of a sudden without you noticing it, you will realise there is an arrow inside your heart. You will only start to realise it when you start feeling sweetness and pain at the same in your heart. You feel pain because its an arrow for goodness sake, but you feel happines because you know you are alive, because there is something in your heart and is pumping.

But when a love arrow is in your heart, and you are feeling more of pain then sweetness, you will want to pull it out. It takes courage, time, effort and strength to slowly pull it out of the weak heart of yours because when an arrow is in your heart, your heart has already become weak.

At the time when your heart is so weak, and you are feeling so painful but you know you have to pull it out, it hurts and bleeds. Its really so tiring, painful and hurting.

You can never pull it out just by one day, because when you see the person again, and your heart is soft, the arrow actually went in deep again without you noticing it. That is why, you need alot of courage, effort and time to pull it all out.

When you finally pull out that long love arrow, your heart will always have a hole, a painful wound and it requires a very long time to heal and recover or maybe it will never heal. And also, because you know your heart has become so weak and is so painful you have a double protection on it. Prevent from any other arrows or things to come near to your heart so you wont be hurt even further and to let time to recover it.

The faster way for pain to go off, and the wound to recover is when there is another love arrow coming in. But, sad to say, that love arrow must be so much stronger, and better to go through the protection 1st before going into the hole and recover you from the pain and the bleeding. But sometimes, it is never so easy, because some arrow maybe so strong to go through that protection, but it create another hole in your heart and making you more painful. Or maybe the arrow is strong that it go through that protection, but it just unable to go in that hole again.

Labels: Piggies

And so, it been days since I last blogged.

So over these days what have I been doing? What had actually happened? What actually on my mind?

I shall talk about the most important issue, which is my studies. I have paid SIM the 1st semester school fee already. Although I have already paid them, but my heart is still waiting for SMU's reply.

Well yeah, SMU have yet to give me any answer at all. So I actually e-mailed them already. And this is the reply that I got:

"As you have previously been shortlisted for the interview, your application is currently on the waitlist as the admissions committee is currently reviewing all applicants who have attended the interviews. There is a second acceptance window period in June and we will be able to get back to you by then. If you have accepted an offer from another local University under the joint acceptance exercise, and should there be an offer from SMU, you may then reconsider your options during the second window of joint acceptance. Thank you for your patience and understanding."

Well, the 2nd online acceptance is starting on the 12th June to the 27th June. Which means, I still have to be kept in suspense for 20days!

But well, I am glad that at least I know that it is not because the mail got lost in somewhere, or they forgot about me, or whatever reason it is but instead it is because I still have that little hope in getting in.

Anyway so if SMU were to reject me, I will continue my plan in studying at SIM FULLTIME. Well, some thing have actually happened that make me be so firm in my decision to study full time, when that time I was still considering staying at NOKIA & studying parttime.

Next entry coming up...

::18/08/87::
::Leo::
::YNPS, ESSS, RP, SIM-UOL::
::Outgoing, Friendly, Lame::
::Emotional, Sensitive, Short::

::PE Teacher::
::Netball Coach::
::Camp Instructor::

::Netball, Basketball, Running::
::Swimming, Badminton::
::Manchester United::
::Sleep & Slack::
::Green, Orange, Black::
::ES Netball Team, Livewire::
::Buddies, Disciples::
::Shifu(Mr Teo), Hubby::
::Sister & Family::
::Team RP::
::Sesame Gang::
::Piggies::
::MeiNu, Tings, Da Jie::

=PSP=
=All who I love live happily=
=Move on to future=
=Not living in the past=
=Able to learn to accept the truth=
=To be self-discipline=
=Not to repeat mistakes=
=To get gd grades in Uni=

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