{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I guess not many people will see this.. so I shall have just blog this...

Who are my friends? Who are my true friends? Who? Who is willing to stand by me and willing to accompany me to do all these? Who is willing to be with me and suffer if time to come? WHO?

NONE? I dont know...

Actually I think in the past I know this very well, but I have never want to admit to it.. but I supposed its time to realise and face the music...

This is life, the people who you treat very well, and treat them as your good friends are never the ones that will stand by you, treat you well and willing to be with you against all odds. INSTEAD, the ones who you didnt really treat well, ignore are the ones who will stand by you...

Is this going to be the truth? I wonder.

I hope this isnt the case. I pray.

Labels: Confused

sign off@11:37 PM;

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

3 years had passed.. I am out of RP.. in another 1 month I will be officially graduating from it..

Had lunch together with E26E and Alex, Carrie and Pat. They paid for the meal. Thanks!

Actually I wasnt feeling anything when having the lunch because there were alot of laughters going on.. especially about the earthquake issue.. I cant imagine that I was actually challenged by Pat can.. and Alex and Carrie joined in and disturbed me lahs.. soo boo boo can..

I took alot of pics with them actually... and I passed them the card that I made the night before.. outside looks good but inside not nice lahs.. haha..

Well, I think I am really glad to have them as my faci lah.. it was really fun and happy in class.. but well.. yesterday.. thanks to alex that I almost teared lahs.. cause he msn me.. then he was saying he abit teary teary lersh.. i was laughing.. but after some time.. i started to realise i also abit teary teary can.. so stupid..

Anyway.. I think without a bunch of idiots... i wont have so much fun in class and even know the faci so well and keep disturbing them.. and well.. that bunch of idiots obviously is none other than my sesame gang lah!!! I think i blog before lers.. the 1st person that i noe is that stupid dumb dumb oscar lah.. although i noe zoe 1st.. but i crapped with that dumb dumb oscar 1st.. and slowly we become sesame gang.. hahaha... oh well.. thanks to them that i actually had so much fun in my last semester in RP.. it was really grreat mans.. i think without them.. i wont be able to enjoy so much.. because it was like.. starting when i dont know them.. i was about to drop Biz Finance and getting ready to come back next semester 1... but wel.. im glad that it is fated i didnt.. =))) thanks sesame..

This sesame gang.. i must say that it consist of too many different character people.. so sometime some how.. will have a little conflicts.. but i think im glad that did not go to the extend of fighting or breaking up.. so its cool.. and i do hope that it can withstand all odds...

Some of the picctures are at the side.. i didnt publish all lahs.. because its quite alot..

sign off@12:27 AM;

Sunday, February 11, 2007

9th Feb
I went to school because want to give present to tings, and because I want to break my own record of coming to school for all 16 weeks. But again, I went to school late, and took a cab to school.

I was late for class actually, I reached around 8.45am and I was surprised that Alex havent start the problem statement yet, and that is when I realised that I might still have a chance for an A.. oh well, so when we are discussing FMT, we are really quiet and Alex msn me to say "too quiet" but well, after reading the PS, everyone started to discuss..

And so the class went on like that, oh yes, Alex didnt write on board... he asked all of us to write because he wants to keep it as a memory.. and here is our FMT (Alex memory for E26E):

So after that it was just normal class like usual, then we started crapping during 2nd meeting but after awhile we got back to work... then break.. we do our stuffs.. and well, I finished off my stuffs before meeting ting, meinu, pig & pooh.. OH YES!!! i was mass-chatting with the 3 of them also.. then stupidly.. i cannot contol my laughter, and i was smiling away.. and alex said, "yunru, are you chatting or typing answer? and he said, dont smile at your com".. how stupid can!!?

This meeting with them is really a torture for me.. they started bully me.. ask me buy bbt.. then after that laughed at me for poking at the side.. then about.. ms cheong.. then after that I saw alex infront of me.. then i started saying that i'm guai student in his class.. and after that he was walking towards my direction.. and i was saying shit.. then that is when he and the 2 big idiots started to tease me!!! i still remember "your forehead stated that please bully me"... not only that.. he asked them about me is it being humble!!! and stupid meinu told him yes! im the most humble person!!! grrrrr!!!!... not just that can.. there were alot of rubbish during that time... and i cant fight for myself at all.. because everyone attacks me!!!

After that went back to class.. then his rubbish again.. then mel and i started our rubbish again about presenting.. then finally.. thats the end of our econs lesson.. my full 16 weeks lesson.. i am very proud of myself.. no Cs =))) and full attendance.. hahaha... anyway i gave him a relaly short RJ.. and again disturb me about me getting poor grade for it.. but it was not =))

Ok.. so after the lesson, went back with pig on jimmy's car.. and then pig called and said to meet them at marina sq. for dinner.. which initially thought it was cancelled.. but well... since i am on my way home it was about 4pm+++ and meeting them late so i agreed on it..

Stupidly again.. late to meet tings.. so to prevent from being paiseh i decided to take cab to MS... and also tings said "dun be late".. so i was really scared.. haha.. in the end.. tings ask me.. why i never take cab to pasir ris.. =/ speechless!!!

And then.. so finally we met up... then we went to cartel to eat.. and actually at 1st it was a little bit weird.. quite quiet.. but.. we tend to joke and alot of stuffs lars after a while.. oh well.. i think i got disturbed for quite a number of times.. especially when we got the menu.. meinu 1st thing is.. "got kids meal or not" wth can!!! I AM NOT A KID!!! grrrrr...!!! then they started the causeway point thingy again.. but i must be glad that the whole dinner was not just about me.. because tings was being disturbed for being slow.. think she is pentium 3 bahs... it takes awhile to process... and the rubber thing is also very funny... i cant stop having the thoughst about her shooting her own finger.. then PIG.. for her spoilt tagboard.. hahaha..

TINGS AND PIG!!!! I just realised something.. did you realise that all 3 of us got disturbed.. while somebody did not get disturbed at all??? tings being disturbed for being slow... pig being disturbed for being spoilt.. and me being disturb for many mnay things.. and someone is only disturbing all of us??? hmmm... interesting can...

OK la.. afterall the whole dinner was really great.. laugh until can die lorhs... luckily we didnt.. =)))

Ok.. so for the last event of 9th Feb. is about MOS clubbing... hmm.. the starting was quite sians la.. because its like miscommunication... cause like mich said meeting time was about 10.30 11.. then so ok lors.. i thought can la.. takin the time 11 mahs.. then so all the way i was only contacing mich.. and she said she was late.. so i thought the rest will go without us.. so i decided not to leave so early but in the end teh rest are waiting for her also la... but well.. sorry guys.. for me not telling you all clearly..

It isnt that great lah.. seriously.. i dont really like clubbing that much.. if it is like going a KTV pub or somehting.. maybe still not that bad.. but well.. anyway MOS is really too many people.. from young to oldl lahs..... but one stupid thing happen to me lahs.. think because i wasnt having enough sleep.. then cause i drank vodka sprite.. then about 30 to 45mins after i drink.. and we went to continue to dance.. i was feeling really tired and sleepy.. and they wanted to go toilet.. so i went.. but when i came out.. then i started to realise abit giddy.. but i thought it wasnt that bad.. but... but.. who knows.. i was really "fainting"... i am so gald that mich was still behind me.. because when i was like "fainting" i couldnt find her.. but good thing she grabbed me.. and i told her i really cmi already... then i couldnt stand str8 up at all.. and eeverything was really blurred.. and i think oscar and mich and dotsss "fu" me... and yeah.. thanks alot gers.. if not i faint on the dancefloor i also dont know.. hahaha... but maybe its the smoke and the music that is making me giddy., because last time i also drank vodka sprite and whiskey.. but nothing happen to me lors.. but well.. thanks to them la.. if not it was really bad mans.. but somehow.. after this.. all the more i dont feel like going to club anymore mans...

So when they move me out of the place.. i got better.. the spell went off.. so it wasnt that bad.. then after that.. we went to take bus.. stupid enough of me.. i saw alot of my buses.. but didnt stop it..and so i waited for an hour? haha.. and everyone was like already back home or on their way home? but well.. so reached home around 5 then bathe and sleep..

sign off@1:39 AM;

Friday, February 9, 2007

While waiting for my hair to dry, I shall type one entry...

Oh gosh.. this is the 1st time I feel the fear when I am going home at late hour. I was at chinatown with sesame gang, and somehow we left the place at about 11pm and so because of my bus concession, I die die want to take bus therefore I took the same bus as mich.

1st incident: We reached Bugis, and I realised that I can take no.12 home. BUT because I saw no.12 at the 1st bus stop, and actually wanted to alight at the 2nd bus stop, then I realised that no.12 will not stop at the 2nd bus stop, because is alternate! So looking at the time, it was around 11.20pm, so I wasnt feeling that much of fear yet..

Tick Tock, Tick Tock.. the time passed really fast.. it was about 11.40pm

We reached mich's place - circuit road.. It was ulu to me because I havent been to that place before. But because mich was around, I wasnt feeling that fear at all.. but I realised I am dead because I still got to change 1 more bus before I can reach home.. then I saw alot of vacant cabs and therefore wanted to take cab but I couldnt.. after a while, bus 66 came..

2nd incident: I board the bus, i realised the whole bus is filled with people, BUT guess what!? Its all IND...... oh damnit.. I was really scared already... I dont know if I should sit infronf but sitting beside one of them or should I sit at the empty seats BUT having 2 behind me and 1 infront of me.. in the end i chose the latter, but when i sat down, i started imagining alot of what if... what if they follow me? what if one of them sit beside me? and so on and on.. looking at my watch it was really late, and start to worry if there is still any more bus...

3rd incident: Because I am at UBI, Bedok Reservoir.. all the places are really ULU places.. I dont know which is the stop I should alight and wait for my 2nd bus... and thinking if I alight no bus come how? I kept looking back hoping no.8 is behind.. look and look and look.. and pheww... i saw the bus.. BUT.. when i wanted to alight bus 66 I was worried.. shit.. what if no.8 just go past? but lucky thing is that it didnt... and finally i board number 8 with PEACE & EASE!

This is the first time i feel so scared.. so scared that i cant go home... i think never again i will wnat to take bus from ulu places!

sign off@1:14 AM;

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

Hmm... many thoughts going through my mind...

Just 3 years ago... around this time too I was going through what I am going through now... going through a very tough road of life.

3 years ago, I prepared for the worst, when I cant make it, I will retain.. if I can just make it any poly will do.. during this path, mr teo was with me.. he drove me around the different polytechnics.. helping me to find information on the different courses the school have... he kept his promise by taking note of my result even before I will know... standing by with me and advicing me when I knew i did badly for my O's.. i am very grateful to him for all the things he did...

I gone through that stage, and make the decision of the courses and finally I got into RP into business computing which was my 2nd choice.. this was somehow like no choice because of my poor result.. but at least it was something that bad... and i remember telling mr teo about me being accepted into RP business computing.. and he replied something like.. "never stop hoping"

Now.. 3 years had passed.. its time for me to make a decision again... this decision of mine is worse than what it is 3 years ago.. this decision is really the route to my future... i dont want to work for now... even if its just because of that decision and I want to study.. i think its ok...

But, i think i might not get what i really want... what if this time round, i am not as lucky as 3 years ago? what can i do if i am not able to get any of the local university? what can i do? I am not brave enough to think what i will do... but even before that...

In the first place, i was in the dilenma of whether to apply to all the schools before as my result isnt that wonderful at all.. maybe the fear of rejection... but if without trying and hoping.. maybe i wont even get a chance? i asked quite a few facis... they did say just try... but still having fear of rejection because i really dont know if SLA got help or not.. and so decided to ask carrie yesterday, but she was on MC and so decided to ask ms cheong.. oh well.. ms cheong said someone from the pioneer batch with a borderline GPA got into SMU.. this sentence gave me some light.. and she also said the same thing like the rest.. just try to apply...

Well... having someone to experience it before.. maybe there is still some hope... but again.. i still fear of failing.. haha... but well.. today.. i went through all the uni's website... and somehow made the deicsion of the few courses for the 3 schools.. yet to send the application yet... because i need to request for my 1st 5 semesters transcript...

Will history repeat again? This time I wish history to reapeat itself.. by allowing me to be enroll into a local uni...

I am not a christian, but still.. i just suddenly got this thought... "I hope that god will love me so much that he allow me to get into any of the local university.. "

sign off@8:38 PM;

Monday, February 5, 2007

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!! THEY REALLY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO I EVEN LIVE IN THIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!?????????

sign off@11:54 PM;

Sunday, February 4, 2007

Ahhh!!! Today is sunday, and I am at home.. hahaha!!!

Well, there is a list of things that i need to do, but I am doing a little by little only.. boo...

Cleaning of my book cupboard
Cleaning of my warddrobe & cupboard
Clearing of my table
Throwing away of unwanted stuffs..
Study BEC for tuesday test...

Well, and I have only done 1/4 of no. 5.... and the rest... boos... hahaha

Anyway, coming week is a busy week for me mans.. and a week of all my money going to be gonee.. =(((

Monday - After class got OSG talk... good thing is no going out, so I can eat dinner at home

Tuesday - After class got BEC test.. because it will end at 8pm, so I cant eat dinner at home =(

Wednesday - Hope nobody ask me out, I need to stay at home and clear my stuffs mans!

Thursday - Going out to Chinatown with sesame.. well, to get new year clothes? So money spent!

Friday - Going clubbing with Sesame.. they dont want go ladies night.. so well money spent!!

Saturday - The day that I am waiting for!! Reunion dinner!! Yippee!! Though we just met up during mr leong's birthday, but I am sooo glad... cant wait for it...

Sunday - I am going to cut my hair.. hmm.. maybe I should ask to rebond my hair? haha!! And i am going to dye it too..

Monday - Very last day of RP... well.. a treat from Pat, Alex & Carrie... and sighs.. happy sad? dont know.. haha.. but I am very sure I will want to take lots and lots and lots and lots of pictures with sesame, pat, carrie & alex, my meinu, dajie, pig and etc etc.. =))

sign off@3:24 PM;

Good Morning ALL!

Hee.. a brand new skin, a brand new entry...

I spend quite a long time doing up this skin... but I dont think its nice also.. haha.. but because of the effort I put in, I shall just use it..

Alright, I guess its time to really update about my life, before everyone starts complaining about my blog having lots of spiderwebs..

FYP
January was a very bad month for me.. because it was the month FYP submission.. therefore with alot of work to do, and lots of sleepless nights...

Especially during the week before submission, it was really crazy... although it seems as though we are finishing, but the number of errors and unsatisfaction from the supervisor was really alot.. that I couldnt count how many times did I break down in school or at home..

But, during this time, there are 3 person that I must really thank... 1st of all, she is my favourite meinu.. she helped me alot during this FYP.. she helped me to solve errors during this month.. I really appreciate it alot, alot, alot... even though she wasnt my sup, and therefore sometimes she does tried to "hide" but she still help me alot... meinu, thanks for the help.. im really grateful and appreciate alot!

Next is NANA!!! i must say that she really help me during this period too.. this is the time when both of us realise the importance of each other... during her down time, i tried my best to help her by moral support, and also during my tiems.. she helped me through it also.. im super grateful to her too.. it is like even though she has her own to do, she still helped me... thanks nana.. maucks!

Last but not least, is dajie.. well.. she didnt help me much.. but she help me in one of the codes which i needed it badly during december time.. and well.. i am so glad she helped me.. even though im doing the same project as her team.. the same.. im grateful to her too.. thanks dajie..

Well, so after thanking the people who helped me in FYP.. the most important 3 person I must thank will be my fypmates & supervisor..

Especially JS... both of us always get into arguments and have alot alot of unhappiness inside our heart. and alot of time we really flare up and talk out loud with our ideas.. which it was really sickening.. but I must say that.. despite that both of us still tried our best and not get into serious argument which will affect the project..

As for pooh.. I must say that she is really nice la.. despite the numerous time when both JS and I was late for meeting.. she never scold us or what lors.. she just very sians like that..hhaha... but well.. is cool that i know her too..

Well for melv... i must say that alot alot alot of times.. i am really angry with him.. and alot alot alot of time.. that he made me cry.. because alot fo times the expectation he set was really difficult and the time was really near.. but afterall i geuss he is still alright bahs.. hopefully i am not wrong about him.. but well.. only will noe when the result is out... but oh well.. he treat us pasta mania that time too..

Next I want to mention about this month is.. presentattion... our team was really suay.. without msut rest.. we have to present... 2 days after our submission we need to present... therefore we need to rush our presentation slides and then rehearse... but well.. this time.. we did not spend alot of time doing the slides or rehearse.. and i thought i will be so nervous.. but i am glad i did not.. i think i was the most calm person too.. haha.. and i am so proud of myself mans.. hee..

Oh well.. for FYP.. basically is like that.. and now its already OVER.. hee.. i am so glad and happy about it.. =)))

Anyway... hmm.. I am graduating soon.. and its realllll soon i tell you.. i dont know i am sad or happy actually.. but i know that i dread for that day.. because i have yet to know what to i really want.. i mean i know that i really want to continue to study.. and hoping that one of the school will accept me.. but i am just so worried that none of the school will accept me!!! and so if none of the school accept me what should i do? apply for private? but i heard lots of things about them.. going oversea? mummy doesnt agree about it.. so how?

But even before the fear of that.. now i am actually thinking should i apply for all the school.. my result isnt that fantastic at all.. my result is just a normal average result of RP students.. and therefore how? should i spend the money of $35 to them.. and tried applying for it? and hope there is a chance? Hmm.. maybe i should right? never try i never know.. and if i try.. dont set any expectation.. and so i wont be disappoint... hmm.. well.. i shall just wait till i graduate then i will see how again.. wait for another week.. look at my result again.. then i shall make the decision again..

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sign off@4:17 AM;