Lesson need to be learnt before it will stop repeating itself... Miracle doesnt happen always... Its time for me to wake up... but its too late anyway...


Being able to maintain my daily grade but not UT in year 1... Being able to do well in UT and not daily grade... And so, now not being able to do both... its my own doing... really... daily grade is something easily can get good grades.. but well just too bad you didnt make sure you do that... UT now is getting really more UNDERSTANDING!!! Its not like before anymore... if thinking can scape through by just using 6ppt.. is too bad... well my UT and daily grade is killing me now... and... is my own fault...


Feeling really regret and sad about it actually.... seeing my GPA from 3.0 dropping to 2.7 when you are hoping it to be pushed up to 3.2... and knowing that it was within your means... and you just let it slip through your control... and when you realised that.. its already too late... everything is over already... its now not within your control, so just bear with the consequences and make sure you learn it now.. you didnt want to learn it the soft way.. and so just have to learn it the hard way then... and hoping miracle happens again for my UT...

Labels: RP

Woo.. just came back from haircut.. oh coolx.. =) Well, dont worry, I am still keeping it long just that now is lighter because jiu jiu cut it thinner for me and fringe cut short... =)


Anyway, just now come back I felt super happy as I see my grade for Web apps... Hmm.. its really a joke from HL... =) Hee.. I got my hardwork pay off... and now is to make sure it really pay off and also to do what I promise... Well, my web apps still not at the edge, still able to push it up to maybe a B+ or B... so now till week 16 I gotta really work hard.. =) Anyway, I sms HL I love her when I saw the grade.. and she thinks its drama.. haha =X


Anyway, I guessed I had finish buying my CNY clothes... I dont know why, just do not really feel like buying lots of clothes... just want to save the money up.. and maybe really get bags... my bag is really going to spoil soon.. so yeah... this is a need.. and for a want.. is a new hp.. well.. I guess this 1 must wait...


I have yet to clear finish my table and cupboard for CNY.. hee =X I supposed its going to be like one of the year whereby I do it during CNY eve... hee hee hee =X OOOPPPPSSS.... =X


Hmm... I really need to call MOE and have an appointment and collect my O level cert... if not my cert will be gonee..... I need to get this done by April... hopefully before I start school again.... Anyway, CE pts leaving with only 6points... hopefully I can get it for OH.. then everything OVER! =) Heeessshhhh =) PP... waiting for reply.. so yeah... just got to wait patiently...


Hmm.. whats more to blog? I dont know... so I guess just go to sleep.. and do well for Web Apps... =)

Labels: RP

Haish.. what actually strikes me? I got so moodless suddenly... -sadded- Dont know why HL's word this time hits me rather hard... maybe I just focus too much already...


"He do work different from you, he use his own laptop, he do research and do the ppt" was this actually a joke? Why did I take it so hard? Hmmm... maybe I guess I just really hope to achieve A from HL from now on... somehow... and I did my work last thursday and just that I didnt use my own computer... but it was me who understand the codes and tried to explain... it was me who actually spotted the mistake from the codes they copied from others... but... haish... really quite sad now... Yes, I might be spending too much time outside for lunch, but when I came back I was focused and spotted the mistake and tried to do it... didnt use my computer because already had problem and furthermore its like since Ain is already doing it.. just use from there... haish.... maybe she was just kidding.. and maybe I was just expecting too much... haish... sadded.. =( Hopefully it was just a joke...


Hell.. tomorrow got meeting... damn... and the agenda is? DONT KNOW!!! Idiot!!! I hate it!!! I am getting moodswing now... oh bloody hell!!! Hopefully later I will be in my chirpy mood... -sighs-...


I really damn no mood man!!!! DAMN!!!!


Havent do my spring cleaning alsoo.. siansded... how to go meeting tomorrow sia... need to clear my stuffs... somemore have to go meeting... then go watch match.. haish.. boreeedddddd...!!!!

Labels: RP

I must really stop myself from taking cab already... I guess I had really been spending lots of my money on cab... especially when going to school... everyday I could just spend away my allowance for it... Oh god... I really got to have some self-control on this...


Hmm... bursary money is in already... its time to really save that money up and not spending it away! Oh well, keep my UOB card already... hopefully I wont touch it for this whole year... I really cannot spend money already... its too much man... every year having the same amount of money for bursary.. and yet I am unable to save.. the amount of money is the same... oh god!!! Arrrgggghhhh I have to save up!!! Alright.. I need to save till 6.2k by this year!!! No more spending in my UOB card!!!


Oh!!! I should really stick to my mind and take train to school... I had just wasted my time on waiting for the stupid faci to start the class... if I were to take train probably at this time I would have already reached Redhill and take my own sweet time to walk over! Damn it!!! Next week onwards for Networking I will just do that!!! Wasted 16 dollars on it... maybe next time I should really listen to my mind and not my heart!!! Argggghhhh!!! There goes my $16! I am not going to rush for class for Networking!!!


Anyway, back to some of the things that had happened... Havent been really blogging due to IVP and chionging Maple.. hee =X Well.. IVP its over already... oh well.. PPLayed quite a few matches but somehow.. at the most crucial game I didnt really play... I was told that I didnt play well... I was told that I didnt stick to my opponent close enough... Hmmm.. actually thinking through.. I think if I have half myself and half of Eve that would be good... I am good at my "fierceness" and she is good at sticking and listening to him... so if we were to combine maybe it would be better.. hahaa =X Talking crap!!! Anyway, hmm.. well lost to NP by 4 goals... and there goes our 5th position! It was a saddedning moment.. but somehow managaed to control my tears... and also well.. have a deal.. we need to go training for once a week and by IVP.. we need to attend twice a week.. I guess is reasonable enough... anyway now its time to train on my own.. and somehow I think its time to chiong in Livewire.. that is want I always wanted... somehow well.. I need to make sure I am better to play... Yes.. I really need to train and chiong... I must achieve what I always wanted the most....


Alright.. enough of netball.. oh ya.. I am staying in Netball because I really want to win NP so desperately!!! Ok.. hmm.. studies... I guess this semester studies will be quite bad... somehow I think my laziness had controlled me this semester... was talking to HL actually.. and she told me that I was lazy.. but anyway was sglad yesterday lah... managed to do the work... and actually when you work ah.. you wont feel tired one.. haha.. maybe should really try for now till next year...


Hmm.. module selection.. I really dont know how... Sports module or Business module or IT module? My heart and mind really wants to take up Sports Module, but somehow business exemption in Uni stops me... To get better GPA or what? Hmm.. I really dont know... Maybe I should just take up my interest.. because like what my jie said, I might not even get into Uni.. and somehow you need your GPA to go through it first right? And Miss Goh had said, next time still can take Business Module ma.. so.. hmm maybe should ask around somemore before they start having the module selection... Another issue is the Business Electives,.. having Business Finance, Micro Econs and Consumer PSycho... I need to choose one.. so which one should I choose? -shrugs- Hmm.. must approach SOMEONE NICE, HANDSOME, GOOD - Mr Teo =X oops.. hahaha =X Maybe should ask him about it...


FYP - hmmm found Nana to do with... thought can work with ah Ron they all.. but somehow I guess is no... asked them for long.. but no reply.. and somehow well, Nana stayed near me.. maybe by this way.. we can do better... and can meet more frequently... like maybe we can even go our nearby library and work on it... =)


Alrights.. start to do work already.. but its a lame day.. I must say.. its sucksss!!!

If you think you are beateen, you are;
If you think you dare not, you dont;
If you'd like to win, but think you cant,
It's almost a cinch you wont.


If you think you'll lose, you're lost;
For out in the world we find
Success begins with a fellow's will,
It's all in the state of mind.


Life's battles dont always go
To the stronger or faster man;
But soon or late the man who wins
Is the one who thinks he can

OOOOH!!!!!! I AM so HAPPY!!!! This is a feeling that I havent been feeling for long....


We won TP once again! We won them.. we really won them hard! I really love the feeling sooooo muchies!!! It is the kind of feeling that I had never felt before.... not just because we won them... but because I think I had done well tooo.... Well I think he was really angry at the first quarter, well shouldnt blame him.. though I know he is bias.. but at least he still put me back again in 3rd quarter..


I think he trusted me more than Eve, as when he saw RX is playing WA, he told me I will go in first... and asked me what to do... well didnt really support much... but I guess I managed to defence ok... then next is when I was called to be in 3rd quarter... I was delighted!!!! I was so delighted!!! I thought I wont get in already... but I was wrong! He put me in!!! Really!!! He put me in!!! Well I didnt disappoint him this time... I did what I am supposed to do... I supported them and also defended... well I think I must really learn how to defence the cross pass... I only managed to got once without offside... quite a number times I was caught offside when I tried to get those passes... well.. its really time to learn that... and anyway.. seems like blocking them out is good... the feeling is shiok! =) Managed to get 1 RX ball.. wahahaha =X


Its time to train up my fitness and also the interception... its time to lose some weight and also getting fit.... and also training up my speed... its really time.... going Livewire is a very different case.. so to get to play... I must train... I must really train... yeah! Also.. its time to learn to accept the fact of sitting on the bench.... slowly... slowly... !!!! Anyway I only played 2 quarters today.. well.. I understand that he wants Eve to play.. and well.. its ok! =) And because I really know I had done welll =)


Anyway, for the NTU match yesterday... was crappy! I played all 4 quarters.... with 2 Cs and WA and WD... I just sucks at attacking!!!! I cant really attack welll... I cant coordinate with the shooters man!!! Oh god!!! Well... but when I played WD.. I guess it was much better =) feel much more confident there... I guess I just need more training seriously!!! I need it man!!!! Well.. I am glad I feeling good after today.. heesh!!!


Janelle! We make it!!!! =) Like I said.. its going to be a good news... and it is!!! =) YEAh!!!


Girlsss I really love you gers so much!!!! All the fighting spirit was really there!!!! =) Love it!!! I am really loving it!!!! Heeesssh... Girlss... can we have the same spirit and win 5th position on Wednesday!!! Pleaseeeee!!!! Lets have the same spirit again!!!!

Labels: Netball, RP

Full of thoughts... just had our 1st match for IVP... hmm.. I dont know to use what kind of words to describe how I felt now... but having a very bad headache.. so shall do it fast and sleep.. tomorrow still have class.... and its System.. so its going to be very tiring...


First quart, was being told I played really well... I really keep thnking now.. what have I really done that makes them think so.. or was just words of encouragment from them... I keep thinking... well, I know that I listened to Tony about moving back and looking at the GS.. and other than that, I know I had intercept one ball.. but I also know I passed wrong because I couldnt control myself... and my support was like ok ok only.. for the 1st quart...


I shall talk abot overall... my mistake is I really dont know where to run... I dont know when to run... especially at mid court... like so many people.. dont wish to crowd them... but I was in the wrong.. I was supposed to support... and at defending side.. I also somehow didnt know where to go.. haish.. haish.. and last but not least.. I too back already... so well.. this are the things I need to change for NTU match.. so to get ready for TP match...


TP match is a really must win... we must get 5th position this year... playing against NP? SP? NYP? dont care which one.. we must defeat TP!!! I want to win soooo desperately... so much!!!! I really want to win....


My performance is not up at all... my stamina sucks to the core... I hate myself!!!! I really hate myself soooo mcuh for today...This was like after 1month of rest the first game man... first full game.... wahs.... haha... but well this isnt any excuse at all... haish.. its really my speed and stamina... and if I really only wnat to concenrate in livewire for netball.... i guess i need to really train up my speed and stamina.. then I can get to play.. yeah.. well.. jiayouuuus..


I shall forget about today... and make sure NTU game will be better.. and TP game will be even sooo much better and then whatever game will be the best!!!! I really want to be Top 5 soooo mcuh... so if I really go back badminton I will be glad at least I got 5th in position...


Be more focused... well.. I think overall was my fitness fault... hmm... I guess.. I just need to be mor determined... hmm... alrighttt... jiayou for next few games.. and shant get so affected by this...

Labels: Netball

Mr Teo.. is the best person in the world... he is the nicest person... he very caring... very good.... he will always send me to school, home and to woodlands when I was injured... at night when we were out late.. he will send me home.. somemore is at our doorstep one.... so no people will be like him...no people will be like sooo good... MR TEO is not a mean person, not a petty person... he is very FORGIVING.... very BIG HEART person....


MR TEOOOOOOOO.... SAW THIIISSSSS???? DOnt make me guilty le lah..... dont angry liao la... okkkieees????

Woo hoo... shall blog a little..


Today went ES... well.. its been a very long time since I was there.... the feeling was great... really great.... it was so good that nobody can really understand...


Today they have calibre testing... sit around and look at those SL... hmm... somehow seee there is difference in the senior SL... and yeah... anyway so feel like going for the sec1 camp again.. haha.. been there fore 2 times... lolx.... 1st time know Perrine.. then 2nd time saw YY... hmmm... hahas...


Tomorrow school.... boooossssss.... borrrriinnngggg..... Networking.... goooosssshhh... even more boring... I need to pia that.. cause I have miss lesson already... booo hoooo.... =p



Talking crap... somehow.. hahas... bleash....

To save my own life... I have decided to keep that entry a secret... but incase M.T and M.G havent seen that blog.. well.. is about me thanking for that... and I love it.. and yeah... =)


But just to let you know,... my EYEBROW had "chu mai wo!!!" gosh!!! Almost all my friends could see I trimmed it.. and looking at my "longest" hair.. they were shocked!!! goshhh!!! Sort of make me paiseh somehow... was like erhs... shy... =X But well.. just have to leave with it..


Now weather nice to keep long hair... so somehow.. hope it will be like this... then anyway yah la.. today was paiseh.. if people saw my face... and had no choice but to tell them I went for IT!!!...


School today kinda of fast la... when you go school.. you will realise time flies... and alright.. not to bad... and training.. well feel the competition... going to really tries hard bahs... bo bians... anyway fell hard... so kind of having a bit of pain on my back now... =( sadded..


Hmm... alright... nothing much.. need to bathe ...

Love you two so muchieee!!!! Thanksss... its really a surprise.. and well... really damn not prepared surprise from you guys!!!! -MUACKSSSS-

Here how it goessss....

I got into a shocked today... I know that I am going to have a makeover with M.G... and going to meet her at her house because I dont know where is the place... so well.. I went.. was really very tired on the bus... then finally reached.... and she asked me to go to the lift there... and I was like.. why? And soo.... I went.... then saw her wave at a car... and... it was M.T... I was really awaken from then.... I thought cause I late then take cab, BUT ... it was HIM!!! GOSH!!!!...


I was like oh my god already when I see him.... I was really shocked... then later... he said, "I also chipped in for present lers... so I must come..." here comes the 2nd shock... because it turn out to be my birthday present.. omgs.... I thought it was I pay myself... but... but.. but.... wrong lohs.... and erhs.... so was in car... and even P knew this.. caused M.T go and call her and tell her... and say if she were to treat lunch he will tell her where and ask her come over... and well... I gotta treat them lunch then...


Alrightsss... we reached the place... he was even ready for video-ing... lucky is that the person dont allow... but he took my camera... gosh.. I was really not ready.. because its kinda of shocked... and so cannot be natural at all lorhs....and cause of his presence also make me SHY!!!


Hmmm... wore a tube dresss.... spagsss!!! OMGS!!!! When M.G said she will lend me her top I was thinking.. okies.. then I think again.. will I be able to wear... was kinda of scared... then when I wore.. was like... okies... not that bad... still can... but show abit of FATS!!! goshieesss... =(


Oh yes! M.T keep laughing at me!!!! makes me even more paiseh can!? Then there was a point, the photographer said that my hair always short one right.. then I said yes.. and M.T said, " this is her longest hair!" omgs!!! I AM KEEP LONG HAIR NOW!!! WAITING FOR IT TO GROW!!! BLEAHSSSSSS!!!! JUst you wait and see...


He took my SD card... oh mans... sooo many ugly pictures inside.. because I dont know natural at all! goshhhh... Dont dare go back ES actually.... afraid he might do some foolish things!!! He even send my picture to M.L!!!! grrr....


Okes.. then we go eat... =) They really give me pay.. =) Phew... at least better la... cause they really pay alot for the thingy lors.... and also.. just nice our meal is $70!!!! Its just on the dot of the amount in my wallet... haha.. should have eat desert.... so that you guys will pay!!! bleahssss!!!


Next... go IKEA.. before that was about to go home lah... then they see I ke lians... then allow me to follow them... wahahhaha!!!! bleahsssss.... miss me too much mahssss!!!! wahahahasss.....


To M.G & M.T,
Thanks alot! I really love it!!! Its wonderful! =) Love you guys... =) muackksss...

Labels: birthday

I really dont know how... anybody can help me?


Since secondary school... I always hope that I can play as long as I am in the team... this is a very unhealthy thinking.. because it is impossible... just last year... because of that I talked to my coach.. and things actually got worse... soon... its going to be IVP and after that a league with the club...


RP (IVP) - I dont know if I can play... eve had got stronger... Sab is in the team... chances of me playing gets even lower.... and I know I am a person who will get very sad about it...and this is really bad habit of me... and the thing is I know in Livewire the same thing will happen also... how how how!!!??? I really dont know... I know I am not as strong as some.. but still haish.. I dont know man.... so saddded.... the heart of playing is soo much... that I will just get down... what can I do? I wish to change this bad habit of mine!!! Well... I must try to control myself then.... haish...

::18/08/87::
::Leo::
::YNPS, ESSS, RP, SIM-UOL::
::Outgoing, Friendly, Lame::
::Emotional, Sensitive, Short::

::PE Teacher::
::Netball Coach::
::Camp Instructor::

::Netball, Basketball, Running::
::Swimming, Badminton::
::Manchester United::
::Sleep & Slack::
::Green, Orange, Black::
::ES Netball Team, Livewire::
::Buddies, Disciples::
::Shifu(Mr Teo), Hubby::
::Sister & Family::
::Team RP::
::Sesame Gang::
::Piggies::
::MeiNu, Tings, Da Jie::

=PSP=
=All who I love live happily=
=Move on to future=
=Not living in the past=
=Able to learn to accept the truth=
=To be self-discipline=
=Not to repeat mistakes=
=To get gd grades in Uni=

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