I want to conquer myself.. really.. so much I want to... I dont want to be like a loser anymore!!!! I hate to cry already.. I hate feeling so down everytime.. really!!! But like my nick, 力不从心 : it means"abilitity falling short of one's wishes."

I yearn to play so much.. but I am not good.. this is not worse.. it is when.. I think I am good or rather better than a few others? How can I get rid this thinking? Because when you are able to get rid, maybe it is better? You can think that she shouldnt do such thing, but in court, you might be doing the same thing?

My mind wnats to train.. but my body cannot take it.. why? I feel I'm trying in RP now, but when I go livewire, I am like a piece of s**T! I dont have that kind of feeling anymore.. I lost it.. and what is worse is when before training your mind was full of energy.. but when you go and train.. everything is turn down.. and you cried so badly during training?! what the s**t!

That day.. after playing for RP.. or rather together with sai they all against RP... I sort of know what position do I wants to play already.. but.. my weakness is the biggest weakness as an attack.. or rather even a netballer... how do I even tell him that..? And what is worse.. when you dont say.. you will never train that position at all... i'm stuck of no where...

Anyway.. please wake up.. and train hard... so you might one day.. gets better? and maybe.. you should really say out? please wake uppppp!!! and train hard... body body.. please listen to your mind.. please please please...

Anyway just a thought.. so what you get to play as many games as possible.. it is like when you are no good.. and you get to play as many games as possible due to the opponent not really strong.. it is no point.. because at the end of it.. you arent a good player? And... to play as many games as possible.. be a good player... why must you wiat for the team to perform well and then hope to get the chance.. and not grab the chance yourself?

cry.. and cry all you want.. and stop it.. and no more crying after this.. no more!

Labels: Netball

::18/08/87::
::Leo::
::YNPS, ESSS, RP, SIM-UOL::
::Outgoing, Friendly, Lame::
::Emotional, Sensitive, Short::

::PE Teacher::
::Netball Coach::
::Camp Instructor::

::Netball, Basketball, Running::
::Swimming, Badminton::
::Manchester United::
::Sleep & Slack::
::Green, Orange, Black::
::ES Netball Team, Livewire::
::Buddies, Disciples::
::Shifu(Mr Teo), Hubby::
::Sister & Family::
::Team RP::
::Sesame Gang::
::Piggies::
::MeiNu, Tings, Da Jie::

=PSP=
=All who I love live happily=
=Move on to future=
=Not living in the past=
=Able to learn to accept the truth=
=To be self-discipline=
=Not to repeat mistakes=
=To get gd grades in Uni=

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